This and that....

This posting in a rush thing is really not working coz I hardly get time to fix typos or read what I wrote, but what can I say..... I need to invest in these 3G-do broad bands-en wat ook al that they advertise everywhere.

I am just old school like that, as in I still used my second pc that mom bought for me about 6years ago!!!

If I don't strangle myself before the end of the day, I'd be officially a very tolerant person, Jacaranda RM FM is getting on my nerves!!!! Reason - Lack of creativity I think, not to mention the very predictable song-line up. I have to listen to that thing every day at the office.

Back to me and my Gold-Mining lessons:

It is un-do-able, my "teacher" keeps pointing me at direction I will NOT take. I mean everybody that knows me would know that I cannot stand people who repeat your idea and pass it as their own to other people....... to sound smarter I think. Now on Friday, I was out doing my usual "Friday Intoxica-relaxation" thing with 2 friends and we were bouncing off ideas about a lot of things mainly music (they are about to drop albums - do look out for them), making money in a fun way, how certain companies market themselves, politricks and the sort.

Now this man in a beige suite and them long shoes and eaves drops on our conversation then way later on when coming back from the loo, I walked pass his table and heard him saying the exact things we were going on about.... then later he had the nerve to play flirty with me asking what I'm drinking and stuff!

Now the girl who is supposed to be "giving me lessons on how to catch gold mines" advises me to go with the "flow".

That was it for the night for me. She had to be drinking something that makes her see sense where there is none!!!! The guy was trying to get whatever he possibly can, others may have had fallen for that but not this biatch, she aint crazy like that!!!!

Anyways I have to go do what I get paid to do.

While my "How to be a Gold-Digger" lessons are on a slow start, I had interesting things happening in my life. Not much life changing but interesting none the less!

On Sunday.... just yesterday that is, I decided to go to Lekazi (Kanyamazane - the township outside Nelspruit) (BTW, I used to live there at some stage of my life). I was with Pam and she had never seen my former home (I show anybody who cares to see) and I decided to go visit the lovely old lady that used to feed me coz I've always been lazy to make food and chew. My old time friend was there and was actually on her way to "besoek" her brother at the prison, I offered to take her there as this, for me, was going to be going to an excursion of some sort (LoL). We did things as per procedure then we went in in waited for the brother to be called and stuff.

While waiting, we had a chat - and she was teasing me about me not having a man or some isht similar to that and said that she would make it her personal mission to find me one - in PRISON. My thoughts were : Oh, hell to da NO! A rehabilitated criminal who has been sex starved for lawd knows how long and probably been mad a bitch by other prisoners!!!! Thanks but no Thanks....

Just then the brother came through..... we were on the other side of the glass and steel cage thing! Then there he was..... The very first guy I thought I loved in my life!!!! Dressed in orange overalls and looking pale, sad and just miserable. I couldn't contain myself.... I ran off and came back again, mouth wide open as I was still trying to understand how he went from being a sweet boy (who cheated on me coz I wouldn't give it up) to a man arrested for armed robbery??? It was just so weird!!!!

We had a short almost meaningless talk - I honestly didn't know what to say to him, I hadn't seen him in about 10years. He asked that I buy him a coke, I just gave him a R100 so he can do whatever with it...... I don't know what goes on in there. I just felt sorry for him and knowing his father.... he probably doesn't much visits from family or friends - he never had much of those (shy).

I just couldn't believe it, all I kept saying for the rest of that day was "Hawu, Usfiso nkosi yami".

He asked for my number and gave him a wrong one, I have no reason really for doing that except that I feared him in some way.

Wow, how people's lives change nje. Says a lot about the decision we make regarding our lives!!!

Hello people.

I'm being taught how to become a Gold Digger!

Good Morninng world..........



Question:



What the hell happened to good, honest love???



I mean, have we (Women & Men) all become these opportunists that only love the people we can gain certain things from other than old simple love.



It is shocking to see the extremes that some people go to, to "bag" so called conquests. This is somethings that happens - race and age doesn't matter.

This bugs me as much as "going with the flow" does. You know when you can't tell a person that you love them coz "oh my word, it's too early for that, you just have to go with the flow", I've asked this before..... How many flows does one have to go with before normal relationship. What happened to that old school lovin that our folks used to tell us about?

It's true what "they" say about us never finding that love that people felf in their hearts, when people used to be willing to do anything for love.

We, at this day... decide on who to love. It must be a strategic decision they say!

You'll be bitch-slapped as a man telling a girl that all you have to offer is love! What the fcuk will love do for her at the end of the day? It won't feed her or get her a townhouse and a ride. If I were a man, I'd be on some "Bitch, go get a job and buy your own isht!".

I am a joke to my friends coz I always hook up with broke niggas and if there is a monied man interested, I just cannot bring myself to be on a "let's blow his money" tip. Angazi nje!

So a chick I've recently met - who claims to be the Ultimated gold digger, she says Khanyi Mbau aint got shit on her!!! ha, ha, anyways she has taken it upon herself to teach how not to hook up with (and I quote) "useless niggaz who can't do shit for you besides sending you texts with too much nyif-nyaf and tellin you that you're the best thing to ever happen to them!"

I will fill you in on how that works out!!!

Looking at the brighter side of isht!

With all the bad things that have been happening to me........ I have decided to think positively about it.

I won't hate on a dude wearing a Manchester Tshirt (Dude who damaged my ride was wearing that), I will not do what most people do when they are single (shagging anything that walks just coz they can), I will not slack off at work (though it gets tough at times), and I will not talk badly about some people (even though they are idiots of note).

I am going to try and see the positive side of everything I find myself in, for instance..... they might have fcuked my my car but atleast I still have one, I didn't get hurt or I didn't run over a person or get into an accident.... I mean that's good right???? Even though I am spending a few thousands fixing my ride, the thing is.... I can always work harder to get more of them and the most positive part of that = I won't drink as much coz I will be too broke to afford booze!!! Now that (as much as I hate the thought of going for a weekend without an Amstel or Heineken) is good and healthy!!!!

I have a story to tell about a man on a mission @ the work place.......... But for now I have to go home!

Later!

I need to get something out of my chest.........









Our SAPS sucks ass big time!









Why??????




This morning I woke up to find my neighbour trying to tackle some moron who was trying to break into my car. He fcuked up the door on the passanger side, he didn't get a chance to take anything though.




Not so long ago some idiot stole my radio and now this... it is just out of hand and now what pisses me off the most is that they are costing me a hell lot of money. I have to pay for every isht they damage on my baby. To top it of,they seem to be only interestet in my ride only. There was a Golf, Polo and Sting parked next to mine but no they want my Corsa-rtjie!!!!




Well then off I went to the police station after calling in and waiting for them to come. I went in and it was jus a horrid expirience (I hardly go to that place, especially to report crime) and the service was terrible.... not, it was worse than terrible.

how I wish I had a scanner right now so you could see the piece of paper they gave me as reference. Oh and it gets better..... the lady that was taking down the statement refused to answer some of my questions regarding their procedures when it comes to cases like mine and if the finger printing people could come do their thing.

All that was pretty useless so I gave up after they gave a piece of paper with the SAPS stamp and some OB number.

That was on Monday. I have been hectically busy and car-less since then but now I am sorted! Apart from the unexpected expense of fixing my car........ all is good,it's gon be a long month, a long and broken one I say.

I am trying to update ya'll on as much as I can so........

I have my first gig as a dj next week, I'm not good yet but you know what I hope to hook up those tunes once have the crowd there is sloshed.

I am so writing a letter to MP News on how crappy our police service is.

Askies for disappearing like that but you know how it is when you work for someone else!!! They say jump, U ask how high - Then pretend to be satisfied with your job when friends ask you how work is!!!! Life????

I've had 2 breakdowns recently!!!! Won't into too much detail though.

Hollar.

Just so ya'll know...... they say I spend too much time on the "net", so I have to disappear for about a week or so!!! I have worked at a place where there are internet usage reports! Really, they have such here and it is darn frustrating, more so cos I cannot have a decent conversation with the people I work with.


But I am not going to bitch about that a lot. I promised to change and do less of that so here's to paying $ at a internet cafe so I can blog. yes, my phone is old like that, I can't do fokol on it.

Don't miss me too much!!!!

Later!

I just had to let ya'll know about this 42year old man in a crisis.... I wouldn't call it a mid-life crisis but ya.

This is a man with the typically ideal life.... in theory that is.
2 kids - boy and girl that are doing quite well at school, into sports and have good morals. A wife, a beautiful wife, with a slim figure, always dressed to the nines, a job at the gvt complex (legislature), a smart home at a security complex, 2 luxury cars.

I mean, if you are like me and you are looking at that picture from far, you'd think wow! That is a nice family.

Well problem is the man is confused to the last bit, he has had sex with a prostitute, with a tertiary kid, with a woman older than him and to a mo'f*cken fag.

(Do not ask me how I know this.... I am the goss-princess of Nelspruit, news just come to me... I just make sure how true they are.)

Ok, basically what I see here is a man who has it all but still feels incomplete or maybe there are more things to experience in life. That I haven't figured out that one yet.

Now I bumped to this man when I was doing my groceries and I just stood there staring at him as he went on about his business, he was actin too fag, more feminine than me (well, almost every one else is), but that was just too gross.

What was even worse was that he was wearing white linen pants................. with a white man-thong that showed when bent down to take a chocolate by the pay-point. Urgh.... I deliberately stood behind him in the hope that he would say something in a manner that would confirm my suspicions about him being gay!!!!! "F*ck me.................. slowly" was what came out of my mouth - in a low, whispery tone, the man turned around and said: "Ooh, darling I prefer it being given to me". for a second I thought I had heard wrong and given the fact that my mind is in slow-mode after 16H30, it only registered while driving back to my place.

Now, men.... tell me, how the hell do you go from being a normal man with all of that to being a person that lives 2 lives. One = straight loving husband and father and the other = a gay man.

I know it is becoming normal these day but I still cannot get that in my mind.

Someone make me understand

I know I have dated a man who told me 7 months down the line that he was shagging men (reason why he never brought the sex issue during our "relationship") and that he wasn't planning on stopping anytime soon as he was getting a lot of benefits in the process. Right, I was young then and had no thoughts of settling down and having kids and a proper home.

Now I am wondering if one will ever find a normal man when so many of them are choosing to get into same-sex relationships themselves.

There was a time a dated a woman for a whole year and even with that I still knew that it is something I def wouldn't want to do for the rest of my life... It doesn't make sense!

Madoda nashiya ubudoda benu nje, kwenzenjani???

Just nje.

I'm not crazy I'm just a lil' unwell..... La, la, la,la.....

That would be the song that is playing in my head at the moment!!!

I have just fallen in love with music all over again, went through my old cd's.... I am telling you music knows how to make one feel on top if isht.

And big-up to the crew that stole condoms & birth control pills.... hope it was for a good reason! I'm here thinking maybe, just maybe they want to be safe.

Condoms - for the obvious reasons +
Birth-control pills - for incase the condom breaks!!! results = no aids and def no unwanted pregnancies.

I hope I'm right. I wouldn't want to watch another episode of cutting edge with people mixing weed with birth-control pills like how they did with the ARV pills.

Phuza Thursday a.k.a Thirsty Thursday!!!

Office politiks are the pits, I am looking for a new job. LoL!!!!

How crappy can our justice system be?????

However Nqonde Balfour planned to justify the grounds which Shaik is released on is beyond me. Watched the interview on Morning Live (Yes people, I watch the news every morning, I just have selective memory when it comes to other issues).



Depression, Chest Pains and High Blood Pressure......... My Fcuckin black ass! Yeah I said it.



Why does this always happens in S.A, personally I think all three doctors, the minister and which ever judge got kick-backs.



How many days did Shaik spend at the actual prison cell like any other criminal out there???



As long as certain people still get special favours done for them, then the "justice system" is not really fair now is it.



If typical guy with a "not-so-good" background gets arrested for stealing R500 would be sentenced to 15years in jail, he would do his full time and if lucky get out on "good-behaviour" or some other reason but chances are that would happen after 5years.



Even if he fell ill, who would give a rats arse what happened, he is a criminal mos.



Imagine how the country would be if every criminal was release for being sick????



These "high-profile" people get away with everything.....



Jacky Selebi, Tony Yengeni, Zuma, Carl Niehaus, Shabbir, that drunk judge...... and that is just the few that come to mind right now.



Where is the fairness in that?



That is my 2c worth opinion.



Depression????? I still cannot get my head around that.... I bet every prisoner would naturally be depressed. He just misses the good life outside + with his millions accumalation so much interest, he sure as hell doesn't want to die not without spending it.





Nqonde couldn't even answer very straight forward questions......

LMBAO, I think I have a similar problem..... It hasn't gotten to the point of total regret!





Some people do look more attractive when I've been drinking than on any other normal day!!!


Shibby, Shibby!!!

I just couldn't help it!

It and 23year olds!

Oh what a weekend, sometimes it was nice and sometimes it was not........

Sometimes I was smashed and sometimes I pretended to be sober.

Sometime I slept for an hour the most and sometimes I forced myself coz I knew that as soon as my phone rings I would not be able to resist the temptation of being debauched.

Sometimes I lied about being flat broke so everything I drank after the wine was on other people, news cafe is not exactly cheap you know.

Sometimes I think there is just something about the number 23..... the last 3 guys I have met are all 23. I am still considering if the cradle snatching deal is IT or not.
Naturally men are ........... saying dumb would be an insult to the few intelligent ones I know.... but you know what I mean. J is really hot though and T has a tiny dick (don't ask how I know, I just do - all the signs are there). so ya, that's I am busy with.


Ooh, Ooh... on of my neighbours has a crush on me (sweet) but he is my neighbour + short and chubby = I assume a very young "willy" as well. I am sorry but I cannot move from explosive sex to a small dick that can't even last longer than 3minutes, I just cannot!!!!

I feel so dirty writing about this and all, especially coz I am at work, which means that I am obviously thinking about it while supposed to be working. Oh dear..... and all (I mean all) the guys I work with are not it.

Ok....

.......aren't I glad Feb is finaly over?!?!

Yup, it's a Friday again and I wish I can stick to my decision to stay in the whole weekend. I don't think I am in the mood of explaining to every second person who says "hi, when is man?" what actually happened coz really...... this is not one of those stories you tell to everyone (unless that person reads my blog).

I've interesting thoughts goin through my head... and one in particular got me laughing till my tummy ached. I can't remember which year it was but I its on my previous posts here. Well anyways, It was me and the "I am abstaining from sex" period!!!! I lost the plot after I could not contain myself anymore........ and now (coz I am with no man), am going to attempt sticking to that, till I get back on the field you know!

See, if I start doin the dirty with a random dude that I am not in a "thing" with.... then he sucks @ it, I'll probably do another one just to be sure if it was me or him who cannot do the deed.

Being known as a whore in Nelspruit is not exactly good (small towns and the way word spreads like wild fires). Now I am really trying to avoid that.......... I have absolutely have no desire to shag any of my past "lovers" and there aren't a lot of men that I find attractive in this place.

So ya that is my story!!!

Lesbians????????

Hmmmm, an interesting thought it is I say. Will def update on that should I find myself caught in between choosing dick over nanna or the other way around!!!!

Decisions!!!

There comes a time in every persons life when they have to make certain decisions.......... and now it is my turn to do that (yet again)!

Since BF now ex-BF left for pursue his mission of destroying his life (pardon me 4 not understanding), and he owes me about R6000 or so.... I have decided to pawn his tv set!

That is the most valuable thing (except moi) that he has, I want my money.... Yes, I too had fallen for the belief that if you love someone (a broke someone) don't be ashamed to spend money on him, lend him some if he needs it and yes, invest in him if you see some potential somewhere there in betweeen now and the future!!!!

I wasn't complaining or anything and I did most of it coz I just wanted to.

He had made his own decision as well - That he is quitting his job @ the bank without talkin to me first!!! Ok, so coz of that he didn't get paid and him not being pain means that I am not getting my money - especially now that I really need it. He left me there to pay the rent of that place alone, I have 2 traffic fines to pay coz of him (yes, he was in a way responsible for them), I have our cleaner to pay..... lawd knows she did his washing as well. He also has a fridge that doesn't look shabby @ all and he still cannot give me anything by the end of next month, I will pawn the damn thing..... hayi kabi!!!!!!!!



*******************now I will calm down & talk abt other things***********************


My toothless space is getting better or at least that is what I'd like to think. Had a beer last night, though the dentist told me not to, I just couldn't help it.

Later

My tooth!

I had that annoying tooth taken out this morning and I am suffering for it. I keep telling myself that it'll better coz Atleast I won't have to keep shoving grand-pa down the hole or spend money getting Dentoforte tablets to keep the pain down every time I eat or drink something cold.... and I can't have that, ya'll know that there's nothing better than a cold beer....not even sex itself! LoL.

Anyhoo.... ya, I am hungry and depressed but I can't do anything about that now can I?

I need to find out what it is that makes me so afraid of needles.... I almost punched that dentist when he came at me with that syringe. Last week we had HIV tests @ work and it took me 10minutes, running around and begging then not to kill me... then I got that small prick...

I thought I had stories to tell but not.... maybe if I feel a little better I'll think of one.

For now though the left pert of my face is just numb and I am hating it for making me look as if I am angry (angry people are ugly) when I am not. Urgh and that taste of blood in my mouth, isht, as if being on my period wasn't enough to make me gag!

W/End of debauchery!

Another boring day at work, retail business is the pits I tell ya!!!

That would be the reason I will be lookin for a new job close to the end of the year!

Weekend - Pure debauchery, I just can't explain it!

Black coffee rules the decks hands down!!!

Ringo = Slowly losing his touch, maybe it's an age thing..... hmmmm

Went to an ANC party as well as the MP Premier's party..... it was so, so but u know what when one starts down alcohol that one cannot afford on a normal day then trust me when I say that one might just forget just how boring the party might be at that time. I have selective memory (by choice)... I think I danced (how embarrassing), and flirted with a 23year old now that is just not on!!!!

Anyhoo, we cool like that now!

Later!

Woza Weekend............

Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes!!!

'Tis the weekend and I am so looking forward to chillin and doing absolutely nothing! I have class in the morning and that is it!!!

How i wish time would just race by so I can go tidy up my bedroom before lazying around!!! Did I mention that I am now single again??? Well I am, but I'm not too sure if I am looking for "someone", maybe some odd-ish company now and then to take me out for lunch, supper or drinks.... definitely not breakfast! I can't be doing breakfast with people so soon, it
s very dodgy!!!

I haven't spoken to BF or should I say exBF in a while and that should be good especially if I am to cut him out of my life for good!

Me friend think that it's a bad idea to dump him 'coz he might just go crazy and that will make things more difficult for him, with what ever that is going on in his life...... I think that is obsessive behaviour (gosh, I hope that makes sense). And some have fears that he will kill both me and who ever I'll decide to go out with when he finds out that I have been creepin..... I think he should just get the fcuk over it.


I see no future for us and if he ever decides to return to Nelspruit, I will ask for a transfer and go back to Durban!


Happy weekend peeps!!!!

FB Shit!

Since the blocked access to facebook @ the work place, one has decided to get back to where it began. And so I shall return to being a blogger yet again.

Funny story - I have managed to sleep at my place for two days in a row, that is good considering that, that is actually the longest I have been in that house alone!!! And as I was talking with a friend saying that one should make themselves available now that they are officially single (I think), right then an ex phoned to ask where I was and if I would like to out for drinks on Friday......! Well, YES... duh!

for sure I want to go out, the sooner I get used to not having a BF the batter it will be to get over him and get to do other things that other normal female people do when the man is not around!!!!

He, the ex.... was the last person I wanted to hear from though! It didn't exactly end on a sweet note so I was a bit urgh when I was speaking to him.

Work is kinda okay today.... nothing hectic or anything to a similar effect.

So then I will wrap it here and hope to post again tomorrow!!!!

later!

Feb - What a tough month!!!

This past week was probably the longest....... to date!

So as usual I Will just cut to the chase, the nitty gritties!!!!

My BF was possessed by demons... literally, I aint never seen shit like this.... mind you this was just after he went to some place thinking that he has a calling of becoming a sangoma (ya, like I would date one)!

But all of that was just disaster after disaster coz he got sick, mentally disturbed, all skinny and..... well I think you get the picture! So with that there came sleepless nights till I decided to go crash at a friends' place (I probably annoyed them to the core)! I just couldn't take not sleeping anymore, i kept dosing off at work and that cannot be good especially coz it is only my second month here.

The most interesting part had to be the time I got insulted by the bf's sister, accusing me of doing voodoo isht on the bf so that he would love me, imagine me using muti on a man..... like really now, I know how to get mine and muti is that last thing I'd ever consider using. Oooh, and apparently I got him into drugs..... now people ya'll know that he smoked weed when I met him.... (if u don't know, go read my 2007 posts).

That was just the ultimate..... as a result of her bullshit, I am dumping him..... imagine dating a man whose family thinks shit like that about you????? no fckin way!!!

Lat night, his folks came to get him and off he left for home..... he just needs to come get the rest of his isht so I can officially be back on the market..... and to think that people including me actually had hope for this relationship, thinking it was gon' last 4ever.... see now isht like that doesn't happen anymore and I was a believer. I am starting to hate talking about this so I'll just end this topic here.

On the other hand though............... nelspruit Groova Ngenkani has got to be one of the hottest things around nelspruit obviously!!!!!! the crew has be performing at most gigs and ya it is all good, this place has got talent and we def don't need to be in Jozi to see our stars shine!!!! I am obviously the manager - duh!!!!!

Work is getting better.... can't say much about the racist cows I have to deal with every now and then, I will sort them out though!!!

For those who had forgotten, it was my b'day on the 9th and I was turning "25", I have to admit that this was by far the worst b'day I've had coz of all the above mentioned isht. then came Valentine's day................................................. slept through out the day, I just couldn't take the madness anymore!!!!

Later!

End of another week, can't say if it was good or bad!!!

A lot of strange things are happening... like seeing a grown man crying and stuff!!!! I moved into another place (not sure if I mentioned this the last time).

Anyways, my lil' brother has turned out to be the ultimate rebel in the family and my mother thought I was bad!!! Right now he' making me look like an angel.

I managed to get a new radio fitted in after some idiot decided to steal my other one. Funny thing though is that this person only took the radio and nothing else, i mean if I were given the opportunity to steal a car or something in it.... I would've taken full advantage. I'd run off with the radio (obviously), the wheels, the battery, the coins in the ashtray thing, the cd's, the mirrors and the steering wheel (realy).

So it is the weekend again and for once I realy plan to stay indoors..... would ya believe that since December Nelspruit has been happening every weekend, it's insane!!! The saying these days is "SigrOOva Ngenkani" - by DJ Sdunkero!!! So I might just find myself shaking what me momma gave moi!!!!

Hey Holy Nigga or do we have a different name for you this year???

I know it has been eons since I have been here... Kasie kept asking me what was up........ well, it being a new year and all, this is what I have to tell ya'll:

I finally had the guts to quit the job that was frustrating me, I got a new one.... its great, I am moving house again but this time it's just me and him.

December was full of surprises too.... I realised that life sometimes gets boring when one gets older, but not everyday is a boring day though.

I also got engaged but I am not telling anyone, especially my family for fear of the boy being judged!!!!


I'm not sure if they actually allow us to blog during working ours so I'll leave it there for now..... Stef, kwaki and all my other beautiful peeps what have you guys been up to???

Do let me know!!!

Mcwaaah

This & that!

Oh dear where do I start.....................



I am heavily stressed but I think I'll get over it, that the gods I am not suicidal freak coz by now I would hung myself already.



The past weekend was quite nice, had a braai and all..... got heavily mothered, you know in a relaxed type of way. The night before was crazy though.



And I have just realised that lately I only go home when he sun rises.... that is a clear sign that I have stayed out for too long.



There is a place called TJ10.... nice place to chill at - Problem: It is f*cken expensive, an amstel costs about R19 for a dumpie and since I like trying new things, I decided "Hey, lemme try some Grolsh", ya'll should've seen my face when the bar person asked for R32! Luckily there was some strange man who had been trying to talk to me whole night. Perfect time to start a conversation I though.



Oh, last Thursday.. off I went to Riverside Prestige Motor's official launch.... what a bore it was! In the papers this was the dealer that "has" Lambo's, Ferrari's, Rolls Royces, Bentley's u name it.... now guess how my face looked like when I realised that they only had 2 Porsche Carreiras and a Boxter 4s, a few beemers and 3 mercs. I mean really, what a waste of my event I said to one lady who looked way out of place. Ai, that was that.... I was there for an hour tops. (the food was disgusting so really).



Kwaki is coming to NST this week, how nice!



Ey, I am going back 2 school people.... that was a very tough decision that I'd had to make after deciding not to dump the BF.



Just a year full time, then part time! I don't know.... I hope I don't change my mind though! Education is good for one- (I've been trying to think positively about this).



Yeah!!!!



Coming back with more updates!!!

Murder on a Friday Morning!

My eyes have seen many things but nothing like this........................

Story:
There is a cat next door, the cat's name is Hlanya (which means Mad), this cat is very mysterious like... with a bell thing hanging around its neck!

Ok so yesterday I saw it killing a bird, though I didn't take much note of it when it was happening. This morning I came across of what was left of the bird - pigeon to be exact... the insides was out, head almost detached from the body and feathers everywhere. I swept that away and threw the dead bird into the bushes.

Now just moments ago, I saw the same cat killing a lizard.... but here is the interesting part I actually stopped whatever I was doing at the time and looked closely as the cat tortured the sh*t out of this poor lizard.

iyooh! Like Hlanya kept chasing the lizard up and down, blocking it every time it tried to get away. Just went the lizard had found a place to hide - Hlanya went after it a bit the tail off. Then the chase started again with hlanya poking & biting the lizard every now and then.

It looked like hlanya was having fun while the lizard was probably screaming I don't wanna die like this.... so it was like a the lizard gave up on running and accepted that he was about to be eaten.

Ya'll should have seen the way that cat chowed down that lizard.......... now I am here staring (in a very weird manner) at this cat that has murdered something right in front of my eyes.

Well, Friday it is today, wonder what the weekend will bring with itself. The new joints that have opened up in Nelspruit are quite hot and happening so I might just get up to that!!!!

Have a fun one yall!!!!!!!

Traffic Fine!!!

I was a bit late 4 work and I had to drop BF off at his work place first right.... so there I am driving towards a stop sign, I slagged down and checked if any cars were coming then I turned right just the this traffic officer pops up from behind a tree and stops me.

He asks 4 my license and tells me that he stopped me coz I "disregarded a stop sign".

Now I thought of telling him to go hang himself coz I felt that I was not too wrong, I kept quiet though. What I was thinking about at that time was that I had no shoes on, I always drive without shoes on - now if I remember clearly I think that also can get me a fine..... Hmmm

The dude gave me a R750 fine..... at this time of the month!!! I am so broke....

This officer was the same one that I thought was stalking me.... on Saturday, he was parked at a turn off to town and he stared at me, I didn't even have my seat-belt on, on Sunday I bumped into him at the west-end Spar and he said hi...... then later he was on duty again, I was driving 80 at a 60 zone and he didn't stop me but today, just coz I didn't come to a complete halt at a stop sign I get a ticket...... Me thinks that if I was alone in the car I would've gotten away with it.

He is mean.

Now I have been trying to make out what this guy wrote on this ticket and I cannot read it.... Can I argue that I do not even know why I am charged with this "offence"?

I guess I have to make way to the traffic dept to go negotiate to settle only half the amount.

Anyhoo.....

Back to work!!!

Update.....

I haven't been here in a long, long time.......

I don't even know where to begin filling you in on what has been happening!

I almost got dumped the one time, but we are now cool and besides, if anyone should do the dumping it should be me I think.

I have chosen to lose touch with most "friends" coz I realised that they actually add no value whatsoever to my life, if anything they actually sponge off me. So I am done with that.

I already have 2 small dents on my automobile......

I am officially gatvol of living with the house mates I have..... they are messy, wasteful, stingy and messy, very messy... I cannot take it anymore. So me & man are on the look 4 a new place where we'll move in together, I don't know (am still thinking hard about that).

BF & I are almost a year old, seems like a very, very long time ago hey!!!! Maybe we'll do a lil something and invite all the haters that kept saying that we will never last more than 3weeks!!!!
I have to admit though, starting a relationship for scratch is not easy at all and I hope I do not have to do that again.

My momma & I are getting along very well, it is unbelievable..... and I actually miss my other brother, the one person I dislike the most in the family.... (see Kwaki, I do have a heart).

Bf has been gone for about a week and a half now, he is at his parent's house and all, I get so bored that I actually visit people who don't make sense all just to get away from these housemates of mine.

After accepting that the fuel price will never actually go down the way I'd like it to be, I have taken it upon myself to charge people money to take them to wherever they wanna go, eg: this past weekend I went to go see this chick and when I got to her place, she wanted to go to the mall and asked me if I could take her there, I said fine but I am low on gas so gimme 50bucks.! See, it works coz I also get to go to the mall and no need to add fuel from my own pocket!!!

It is a bit dodgy I know, but hey.... times are tough!!!!

Facebook if full of surprises hey, like this chick who posted pictures of herself on holiday with another woman's husband..... tjo, the fouls came out 99 and all I had to say was "Iyoh". really...

And I also have a friend who realy need to re-evaluate why he got married in the first place coz it seems like married life is not for him..... the chicks he is banging on the side, the late nite partying! When U get married and have kids those are the things that you sometimes have to sacrifice bro, There are little people lookin up to you now!!!

Anywho I should be the last person talking about this, seeing how I was once a woman he was cheating on his wife with....

Another ex-fling of mine who just by the way also got married, came to me saying something that sounded like he is in love with me............ I had to tell that one where to get off, really. What does he think I am..... the one who saved men who are frustrated in the marriages, WTF???

So well, I had to delete numbers quick coz those are definitely people who are going to cause problems between me and man.

Wow, so ya that is it for now but I shall be back with a follow-up on these and more stories!!!!

To all who missed me..... shame, askies... ek is nou terug!!!

2nd last day of the month.....

Ok.....

Where do I begin (Just BTW I always go through this if I have stayed away 4 long)

Well...... I have bought a car (with the help of momma of coz, don't think I could have afforded one by myself),

I still haven't quit my job yet (I am so f*ckin pissed with myself, well maybe something better will come my way),

I was so sick last week.... gosh I even cried! And my boss kakked me out (as sick as I was, bastard has no heart),

BF & I are not exactly seeing eye to eye, so sad - especially coz I am not one to apologise if I feel that I am right & he is wrong!!!

Ulcer attacks are horrible.......... I've had about 4 of them and I have confessed my sins each time I was in pain - I really thought I was dying, all 4 times!

I missed a former friend's funeral, felt guilty for a while there but Jabagal will have to 4give me for missing her sisters funeral, If she had to hear the story that is,

It was Kwaki's B-day sometime last week....................... errrrr, we are stil gon' celebrate that!

Am so ready to move out of that house, I am done living with other people,...... gosh the habbits! Urhg.....

I promise to go back to eating a bit healthy..... but junk food is just so nice, yummmm!

S.A politics................ what can I say that has not been said already!!!!! God help our country, that is my cry right there.


WOW.........

Ok, will def be writing something 2morow!

Expectations...........

This is post number 201.... would ya believe it!

I thought I was pregnant for a while there and secretly I was happy, most of all I was terrified of what my family would say when they find out.


Well today I woke up and "it" started, it was a few days late so we were quite convinced, to the extent that I actually stopped smoking & drinking for the 3 days I thought I was carrying something. BF was a bit disappointed, though he didn't say it. I could just see on his face when I told him it was a false alarm. Shame man, the guy was even starting to plan and so on.

Well, the better part is that we can start saving up and planning for a baby sometime in the future...... I on the other side am relieved coz I am about to start a new job and was worried about how being pregnant would affect my work and stuff.

He was hoping for a boy, like most men......

I will be changing my email addresses except for the yahoo and gmail, that is where I can be reached and so on. I hope that I will still find time to blog and isht!

Have a great on!

SpriNG

I had one of the most interesting conversation with a stranger at a petrol station in Hazyview, it was short but interesting none the less...... A white man in his late 50's, dressed in his jeans and Ferrari branded leather jacket!



His wife was there of cause so ya'll can rule out the thought that I was flirt with the old man.



They were in a group, going for a breakfast drive in their red Ferrari's..............................



Ok, now I was on my way to Graskop and isht, so that is how I got to see them. 8 Red Hot Ferrari's....it was too nice!



I was going on asking him questions like what he does for a living, how many cars he had and isht!

Talk about extremely wealthy people who don't even bother going to work having made their millions eons ago!

Well.........

My life has been quiet and drama-free for some time now, till last night when a certain stalker decided to call me around 23H15. First this guy says he met me in Durban then he says no it was Cape Town! My gosh!!!! I seriously do not know how I get this right.... all these weird incidents just love me!

So anyhoo, BF got quiet pissed with this guy calling every now and then. I just closed my eyes and pretended to be sleeping.

It is spring day........ and it is windy, I was so sure I was literally going to get blown away - by the wind that is. I saw a veld fire spreading like crazy and just hopes that it doesn't come close to our place.

I think I should do the whole spring cleaning, change my room setting with curtains and all.... if only I wasn't this lazy! If it was not a Monday, I would consider splashing every second person I see with a bucket full of water but then I realised that I am 24years old and doing that sort of stuff is not for me anymore coz of the years that keep packing up on me! Why can't I just remain an overgrown baby????

Finding the correct car is not an easy job I tell ya, now that I can buy one... I cannot find one I like that will be within my budget. Oi, if I knew it so much hassle.

Happy Monday........ hope the rest of the week is cool.

New week! Better be a good one.....

I would've thought that it being a Monday I would have lots to write about but Nope... that is not the case!

I guess with the years adding on and realising that you can't go back to being young ever again really gets one to live light..... safe in a way!

Lets face it for a person like me, it's a bit eerie. I've always been the black sheep of the family and the one that was expected to fuck up everything and now I realise that I am not half as bad as my folks see me!

Anyways.... being a goodie2shoes was never my plan but now it seems that I am not a rebel either! I am just a misunderstood weirdo that is quiet cool (so people say)!
Who would've thunk huh????

Ok so here it is for this past weekend~

• Frankie (the cute miniature sausage dog that made my days) is no more... Some older & bigger dogs bit him to death, we just found his short legged body laying on the street like that. I think it is better when you take a dog to be put down rather than just finding it dead like that!
• I am still trying to quit my job (LoL)
• BF is seriously getting on my nerves to the extent that I just want out, last night was just the strangest..... my cuz calls around midnight askin what I'm up 2, so I told him nah, I'm sleeping and that he mustn't come over. Now BF has never met my cuz for some reason so he over reacted and demanding to know what's what. I just got ticked off coz by now he should know that I aint cheatin on his ass!
• With that on Friday I bumped into my ex while we were at some after party... ex and I got to talking a bit and all that (No, we were not trying to get together again) so now BF keeps asking questions about him and isht. I told him all he should know.... that would be that we (ex & I) were just catching up, I am so done with him and we talk now and then!
• His ex's call him and I do not bitch about it.......
• Ok, while at this party thing, we got mugged, it was the funniest thing ever. Well I was scared for a while but quickly laughed it off, I did not lose a lot so f*ck it!
• I am still lookin for a pre-owned car that I can buy...... It's either they are too costly or too old for me to buy!!!
• The Finland guys that were at the Olympic are HOT. I didn't know Fin-like men were so gorgeous!
• I am extremely disappointed with the SPRINGBOKS.... 2 games in a row! No!!! The loss to the All Blacks was embarrassing but understandable but losing to Australia is just not it!
• The less I say about Bafana Bafana the better coz they really know how to piss the isht out of me! The second goal by Teko (I think) was beautiful though!
• 1 medal was all we got, a silver one at that.... WoW! We have to be laughing stock of the Olympics & the African continent! Bring back the Madiba magic please!!!
• I was smashed in a proper manner last Friday! Was so proud when I woke up without a babalas.
• I am hoping for a super week.
• Cold Play, Katy Perry, Adele and the guys that do the song 'Leave out all the rest" totally rock!

Have a good one!

Happy Weekend my People!

It's a Friday and I am feeling good..... compared to how crappy I was feeling last week!!!

So thought I should share this:

Ladies..... Do NOT go dating a guy that work at a bank unless he is the manager or works with investments etc coz consultants and tellers are broke!!!

This I say coz I know, BF is a something consultant at a bank and the man is not rolling in the dow as most people think. Basically they work with big figures, count them and advice millionaires how to spent/save their monies!!!

Well I hope that was helpful for those who thought.... "hmmm, I should marry a man that works for a bank"! oh, an gents, that goes for ya'll too - your GF might ask u 4 some $ around the 5th of the month as they get paid on the 20th of the month!!!

****so that is it for totally useless information for the week****

I am car hunting..... a 2nd hand car that is!

The one I wanted to get last week is no more..... owner got into an accident and the car was written off, the guy survived but then again that aint got isht to do with me,all I wanted was his car!!!

So ya, I am busy with that right now, I had to decide to get a ride as it seems I cannot do proper things without one. Every second post I see on the paper requires that you have one!!! I can't avoid al those costs forever!

Happy weekend!

***Ok, Holy N & Kasie, I will NOT go to a sangoma! I need me some Jesus***

*** What is happening 2 me***

I feel a bit weird...............

Like I'm in some soapie or drama, so for a lil' while I will just disappear till I am cool again!!!! It's so strange.... I've been wanting to end things with BF for the past 4 days but everytime I'm about to tell him to f*ck off, I feel like I'm in too much like with him!

Everybody else just seems to be pissin' the isht out of me ~

and I am not one to be easily irritated, that is why I am so worried.

(and no I are not Preggies so it can't be that)

IYOH!

Hmmmmmmm

Some one said I must go consult a sangoma as we believe somebody might be bewitching moi.... I didn't believe at first but black people have a way of making one believe all sorts of rubbish. So yeah... I'll be doin that (I will let ya'll know what "they" say).

Oi, ya'll heard about that satanic kid in Krugersdorp or somewhere close that murdered some kid with a sword, they say he was in black...... now that is some scary shit!!!

The only guy to win a medal (even though it's a silver) for S.A will be the talk of the country when he comes back I tell you..... what the hell is happening to our athletes in Beijing, I just do not get why they couldn't get even one bronze medal (atleast). Ryk..... what's up dude, thought you were the best swimmer the country had.

Anyhoo, I think I have a lot of other things to give me sleepless nights than thinkin about the olympic.

Am still undecided!

Ok Thursday today...........

Am on a mission to get my momma to give me $ to deposit a skorokoro 4 myself as I now realise that I actually need one. Sucks really coz now everybody @ home will see that I still cannot do stuff 4 myself (it would have been a different case if I was getting paid the $ I deserve). SO now it is back to the begging and sucking up to the woman!!!

Ok, I now have to return the HR guy's call coz I was avoiding my phone the whole day yesterday!!! Yoh and I don't know what to say to him ~ "Errr, hi.... I'm returning a call I missed yesterday..... mmm, I am still trying to sort out my transport issue before I fax back the signed appointment letter." Hope he understands..... actually they are not even supposed to be begging my ass, surely they have other people that they can hire for the same job. Oh Gosh!!!

Am feeling a bit sick-ish, just a bit...... and I suspect I might have a slight case of diarrhoea! I love flavoured milk and yesterday I bought 12 of them in different flavours, too much dairy has never been good for anyone!

Before I forget~ Ya'll never believe what I found when I tried putting my hand down BF's pants.... a box of ganja/maryJane/weed whatever ya'll call it!!! Apparently he was hiding it while @ work! I just do not know what goes on in that man's mind!

Can't wait for the weekend, just wanna sit and enjoy movies.

Wanted is a good movie..... also finally watched Kung Fu Panda - 'twas great! Still haven't gotten a chance to do Hancock but I must soon!!!!

mOre ProbLEms.........

Ok....... seems like I am not winning here!

The new job (I haven't signed yet though) required that I ave my own car,

GUESS WHAT

I don't own one!!!!!

that sucks real bad, see I knew the day would come when I need to have a car..... I planned on saving for one the next thing you know I am busy spending that same money.

I never, till now been desperate to have my own ride as I used a family car or a friends to get to where ever I needed to go.

That is the reason why I haven't quit yet...... what if it doesn't work out!

Job description says I have to travel to all town in MP for business!!!!

Why can I just win the lotto so I could start my own thing ~ The "thing" I've been dreaming of for years now.

Oi, this is tough........

and they still have no idea of what is goin on (here @ work I mean).

HeLP

I'm supposed to be jumping up and down right now but I am not ~ It's a bit sad really!

I have just received my appointment letter from some company that wants to employ me.

Here is the story (for those who don't know what's going on):

• I've been really frustrated in my current job, that would be the reason why I went out and applied for every job I thought I was fit for. There were good interviews and the bad one obviously.
• My bosses were sometimes not very nice and I often felt like I could just quit but I didn't coz I needed the money.
• The new job will start on the 1st September, they are offering me almost 2grand than what I am currently earning and 7% commission should I reach my target of R100 000 or more....... I could've settled for R500 difference, as long as I could just stop working here!
• The problem now, however is that I don't know how to tell my bosses that I am leaving in a few weeks.
• I need help.................... do advice on how I should approach them!

Ya ne!

I don't know why I am even thinking twice about this........... I mean everybody knows how shity my male boss treats me!!!

See what I said about me being too nice and tolerant??????

Like I feel bad coz I know I am irreplaceable (they just don't know it yet) and they will soon realise that they should've given me my raise when I asked for it!!!!

Hmmmm. I need to go think about this, it is a major decision for me! This was my first job, since I left tertiary ~ this is the only place I have worked, It's all I know.... !

Ok, I need some time alone!!!

Women's day, weekend and all and all!

Women's day tomorrow..........



and I still haven't heard if we are having a week day off or not, it is a Friday and I am @ work!



Not nice @ all.



Moving on swiftly ----------------> I am NOT gon' bitch about anything today, figured that it'll make me look like a bitter person when in fact, I am the nicest person I know.... I promise you , I am probably one of the very few people that can actually tolerate all sorts of shit that people throw my way, and I do that with a smile!!!



Well, tomorrow was supposed to be date day.... meaning that BF is supposed to take me out on a date but guess what, I will be paying for ev'thing! See yesterday was his older brother's B'day and he bought him a huge gift leaving rather broke as he gets paid 10 days before moi.



That is really shity BUT he will pay for that one way or another...... oh he bought me another cute bag, quite costly too but hey I aint complaining!



Lots of events tomorrow



and I am not planning to attend any of them, its chill @ home or with cool friends and have normal fun, One requires that you look glamorous!



Finally gonna introduce BF to my momma as she will be visiting next week before she goes back to Dublin..... I'm not quite sure why I am doing this but ya I am. And no she will not be staying with us at the house, she sleep else where like a hotel or something.



I really hope all female people would enjoy their day tomorrow.... well actually enjoy the whole month. I wish I could say the entire year but that would be pushing it as we all know, It's not always smooth sailing. Well anyhoo



I am learning how to play a guitar in an attempt to serenade my man one of these day.... I need a professional to help me though, teaching myself isn't actually that effective as I think that everything I play is good (even when I can clearly hear that it aint the case)

BiTcHiNG - 2

Why did I even bother coming in to work today????? Only the gawds know what goes on in this mind of mine!

I'm black, I should still be in bed right now............ free day off! And what do I do..........? No I must go to work, what if I get too much work to cover the following day blah, blah!!!! Dear me, why did I have to be so nice.

Oh well, there is BEEF in the house between the house mates! Its like me, BF and his brother against everyone else.

Reasons:

• 2 Cell phones have gone missing, one dude claims someone must have broken in.... which thief leaves all the really valuable stuff to go steal 2 cheap phone??? Duh
• One says he is gatvol with us making noise on Friday nite..... now that is just stupid! It is a FRIDAY Night, WTF? After a long week, we just wanna come home relax, have a few beers while listening to music in a normal manner before we start going crazy all over town.
• One complains that other people eat all his favourite food and so on.... well that is the same person that didn't put in money for groceries. Oh, he also wont eat the polony coz someone left it unclosed in the fridge????
• The other one owes us half the rent from last month.
• I, for the last 3 weeks have been using my own money to feed 4 men coz they were "broke", I didn't bitch about it...... till this morning when one guy said "oh I bought bread yesterday and now its almost finished"! How dare you bitch about bread when I have spent close to a thousand rands feeding your ass when you were broke ~ That was my answer.
• We all agreed that on the 1st of every month we all pop out R1400 for rent & the rest of the things we pay for..... funny enough, when the time comes - people start acting stupid ans ask too many questions about how much we much actually pay.
• Basically I've just lost my cool with them and am ready to move out and find a new place.... I'll still live with BF (Free massages, manis & pedis, he washes dishes and cleans).

So tonight I am meeting with our landlord so I can tune him whats what.

Oh and there is just too much gossiping going on in that house ~ just so you have to know I am not even part of it, its what you get when you put a black man that acts like a woman & a white man who hates his own kind in one room. So sickening!

Haai ke......

Since the 9th is on a Saturday.... when are we having a day off, Friday or Monday????

Hollar!

**BiTcHiNG**

I've got so much bitching, I actually don't know where to start!

1. The first one has to go to my moody house mate, that dude is so moody you'd swear he was pmsing.... really, he's just actin like a bitch these days and I will confront him tonight. I took some time out to calm down coz I knew I was gon' say some hectic things had I spoken yesterday. To top that he still denies that he is gay, a straight man wouldn't do what he's doing!!!

2. Whe you going to publicise an event all over facebook, have banners & posters everywhere.... you better make sure you deliver what is promised!

• Friday night BF & I went to La Kalabash VIP Lounge Launch........ that promised to be mother of all parties to date (in Nelspruit that is),
• We were told to "Dress to Kill", "No entry if you do not look the part".... Bull shit, here is what I have to say: Sasco..... Blue Jeans & a white shirt witha KWV scarf is not dressing to kill, how the hell are we supposed to stick to the dress code if the organiser himself is wearing like he's going to the shops, oh and DARK SHADES AT NIGHT are NOT "IT", them so-called celebs you see on tv are not fashion icons, quit trying to be like them. That goes for you too Brian!
• Please, the next time you invite people to a function........ warn them before hand that they are going to a Nigerian owned venue coz damnit those Naija brothers were all over the show pushing us from side to side!!!
• Where the hell have ya'll seen a "VIP Lounge" with disgustingly dirty toilets that some of us had to run to the parking lot to go squat there (Trust me hygenically, the parking lot was safer than those toilets). Brown, smelly toilets... YUK. I saw some chick there pissing in the basin coz she couldn't stand going nto those toilets..... some other girl puked there too.
• The welcome drinks were shity too..... one had a choice between cheap red wine or KWV whiskey that I swear tasted like brandy!
• They ran out of Marzen Golds................................................... WTF?
• Half the seats there were broken?????
• The music was ok
• Oh, next time.... make the dj's and artists feel welcomed, no free booze or atleast water for the DJ's.

3. Kliff ~ for your career's, please ditch those dancers you had on Friday....... they'll fuck up your stage act. Blue & Cream are their names!!! With stage names like that what would one have expected anyways.

4. Sdunkero ~ The one SAMA award you received didn't make you..... We did. Stop frotin and never 4get the ones who supported you before you became "it".

5. May my ex fling-shag buddy person please get over himself, you are not gawd gift to women, no you are NOT...... and stop askin me to but you a drink, aren't you supposed to be loaded??? You claimed you were!

6. I wish pretty girls would stop sellin themselves short, or being whores I don't know which one to use. At this day and age with aids being the way it is, girls shouln't be goin out looking to be laid by anyone who spents small change on them. That is so not fashionable, especially these students that leave rural areas comin here to study and end up being biatches! EuWW...

Ok then...... I think I am done for now but will be back!!!

Weekend!

shoo where do I start???

Durbs was nice, chilled with the family.... Momma had a super braai for her b'day (You know how oldies do it)!

Aunts, cousins, nieces & nephews all came and danced like "merry" people half the night (I had no choice but to be sober the whole weekend)

Old stories were told as they reminisced on what a troublesome teenager I used to be.... wow!

Yo, my momma got down to old Whitney Houston tracks!

Wished I could've chilled there longer but no..... I had to be @ work!

I got to Nelspruit @ 4.50am by the way and @ 6 I had to wake up & get ready for work (wishing for a day off, yes, yes!)

BF had a blast this past weekend I hear.... hmmm Wonder what he got up to?

Oh I found myself waiting @ the park station for the 22h00 bus..... the one going to Maputo via Nelspruit... dear lord! My ass just froze away and as soon as I got into the bus, there was this funky smell... I have no idea how to explain that stink but it was just there and I had to grin & bear it for about 5 hours as the bus drove!

While waiting there I contacted a jozi hookup but he stood me up.... hmmm I wonder!!! Anyhoo 'twas good though!

I am so not trying to be funny or any other way but there is always that smell when I am standing next/ talking to a male person from Maputo hmmm - that just came to mind right now!

Movin on along...... I am tired, so tired that I actually just want to dose off and 16h30 is just so far away!

Did a bit of shopping too... oh how I love big malls!

Besides that nothing new really!

My male boss was at court today....... someone tell Mafikizolo's management that they are in shit with the law at Pilgrim's rest!!!! Seriously!

My boss was there coz he slapped their road manager...... well it turns out that they (Mafikizolo & crew) were all drunk (driver included), the assaulted some poor Indian man who happened to be carrying a lot of cellphones at the time & they... helped themselves to those phone! The cops there were patiently waiting for them and they were a no show - again!

Haai no

Anyways.... someone tell me how Indian people are able to eat such hot food? Better taste buds or glands, maybe chillies doesn't make them bond with the toilet seat & toilet paper??? That was just a random thought!

Happy Weekend People...

I still cannot accept that I have to shag someone to get what I want.... hell no!

Mine's not made of gold.... but I am not giving it up just like that!!!!

Am I dumb for believing that I will get ahead using my brains and working hard? I mean really - I wouldn't wanna be known for sleeping my way to the top.... how will ever sleep at night???

You should see the old-hairy-disgusting men that want me to shag them in return I will get a nice high paying job.... but is that guaranteed???? How long will it take for other people to realise that I wasn't employed coz of qualifications or experience????

Anyways I was chilling to the people who always know what is going on in other peoples' lives, my gosh .... my jaw was on the floor!

Corruption & promiscuity will never stop in Mpumalanga - I see!

Sure it is true that there is nothing for mahala.... yup! Fortunately I am one of those people who refuse to be exploited and isht!

Question: What happened to most of the people who joined the MPower boat when the station was first introduced???? think Mash, Helen (Gosh I hope they do not read my blog or I'll be in shit). Still though... everybody else is talking about it so WTF???

Oh and I hope that some people stop acting smart when they actually steal other people's ideas , making them their own! They must stop being greedy and let the rest of us unknowns get a slice of the big cake.

Then you get the ones who like acting as if they are celebs when they are around normal people like us.... I only have one thing to say to them: "Stop acting like a big fish in this our tiny pond." Thank you very much.

Ok, enough about that....

I'm off to Durban tonight, it's been a while since I've gone home! Chilling with the family, sleeping in my old bed & covers! Yeah... am quite happy about that. Twas my momma's b-day yesterday, big braai on Saturday.

Oy, BF is pissed off that I was pissed off and I told him that I wasn't pissed coz of him, I was pissed coz I have the flu and I hate having the flu... oh and I got it from him just by the way!

Have a beautiful weekend!

Random thoughts...

How I wish it was weekend already.....

I'm going to Durban, for a few reasons ~ See my momma, One World Festival, hook up with friends and get some of my old clothes to see if they still fit me!!! I am not sure about the last reason by WTH...

I also have the flu, for the second time this year and I got it from the BF....
I only get flu once a year and I am quite pissed that I got it again, I cannot stand being sick. The runny nose, phlem and sore throat just doesn't sit well with me!

I'm broke... yes I am but I am worried about it! Ever since I paid off all my accounts ~ Life is just a breeze! I don't owe anybody, I don't have monthly installments/insurance/petrol/car service that I have to pay for... wow! To top that off I just couldn't be bothered with getting a funeral cover or getting into these investment schemes and so on... simply coz I just do NOT give a rats arse what happens! I have no child to look after, the BF can sort himself out, besides I don't understand why I should put aside money that will be misused by other people when I am dead..... (sounds like crazy talk huh). So if I die soon, my momma will bury me - that I am sure about!

Ask me about this after I get knocked up or have a lil' Diva protege running around then maybe I'll consider getting into these savings/investments thing.

Anyhoo.... back to FB now!

MPower...... Auditions were KAK!

Yup I said it, it is so not like me but hey someone has to say it!!!!

I know ya'll gonna think I am beefing coz I didn't make it but let me tell what went down anyways.......

First a huge hoo-haa is made about the event on Facebook, radio etc, it took place @ Riverside Mall right in front of Pick n Pay, Clicks and the other shops there - causing some sort congestion there. Basically everyone that walked passed, stood and watched as me & a hell lot of other people made idiots out of ourselves.

I mean couldn't they just make it somewhat private and relaxing.....

Think about it, while you are standing there trying to follow the poorly written script.... you have all kinds of people staring at you and probably analysing + gossiping about your accent or the way you are dressed ~ I swear that was so uncomfortable!

I assume they were trying to create a reality-type thing happening there but it was too noisy & there were just too many distractions period!

Anyways..... so there I am with Kliff & BF there, trying our "luck". Oy... first they tell Kliff that he sounds like community radio material!

Some girl went after him then it was my turn.....

Ya'll know that I am somewhat shy neh.... so there I was script in hand, hands and knees shaking like a mutther (that is how I get when I am nervous) reading through the damn thing when ~ just half way through it this guy Dave, who is apparently the programmes manager - decides to stop me and ask if I am chewing gum or something?.... I answered No, then he went to say that there was something wrong with my "speech" and that I was too laid back! Right then my mind just switched off and did not bother listening to what he had to say..... I just turned and walked away having not heard what the rest of the "JUDGES" had to say obviously.

After an hour's interval... they carried on with the auditions calling back the 13 people who had made it earlier on. This time they all had to say the exact same thing - (Ya I was still there giving Kliff some moral support).

Out of the 13 there were 4 black guys, 1 gay shim, 4 black chicks & 4 white chicks.... out of that number only 5 people went to the final. The 5 people included 1 guy, 1 shim, 3 white chicks!

Shocked about the outcome, I decided to ask questions and managed to gather the following:

1. This was just a publicity stunt....

2. They already know who they will employ as their next jock....

3. That person happens to be some white chick from around, that is what they were looking for all along....

Now I am asking why the hell are they wasting so much of the sponsor's (Vodacom) money, going to all these places ( Witbank, Nelspruit & Secunda)???

Me think it's because they are trying to get people to listen to their station.... which is quite difficult for some of us coz I personally think that they play kak music, discuss whack topic, have egomaniacs for jocks and not much originality/creativity is goin on there so on&on... I can bitch about this till dusk! It's like they are told what to say!

The one good thing though, is that the money is quite good.... which the draw card for me (I need to buy me a car ya'll)!

One of the judges was the guy that does the breakfast show, talk about a brother playa hatin on another.

Some have even called the station manager a puppet as he cannot even make decisions on behalf of the station - wow!

So ya, that was my weekend basically........

I still cannot believe I plucked up the courage to stand in front of people and " audition".... Auditions were not made for a person like, worse I hate being looked at so you can just imagine how terrified I was...... my nerves just got the better of me!


***Just by the way, this so not a racial thing... It's just way more than that***

Thank the gods, 'tis Friday!

Have nothing planned and sleeping a bit longer than normal might just the highlight of it!

Oh, I have a problem..... I can't touch a car's door, pc screen, spoons and sometimes people! I am static, I think.

I am now tryin to figure out how I can put this so that I don't confuse you.... it feels like a slight electrocution and I can't take it anymore!

have a fab weekend!!!

the weekend I had....

I cannot believe I was dancing with old women on Saturday, my gosh!

On Friday, I spent time with BF and had a quiet time as I did not know where the Ligwalagwala FM party was ~ as they said, they don't bother inviting me anywhere coz I keep myself locked up!!!! Well, It's actually called being in love and having other priorities besides braving the cold to get smashed and having strangers with huge egos all up in my business!!! Try having a hot bodied someone sleeping next to you.... then weigh your options!!!

On Saturday: Went to harass my former landlord for the money he owed me, R3000 is a lot of money especially if you as broke as I was. Hooked up with my chef friend who whipped up some delissshh food while we sipped our soberness away, went to the FNB basement party... it was horrible but I had fun nonetheless!!! Went to a fab dinner @ Orange.... had a fab time there aswell.

Sunday, I finally decided to clean my room after I woke up at about 15H00 -

BF tried giving me a homemade manicure....... it did NOT work out @ all, shame ~ at least he tried!

That is it for my weekend.

My momma is coming to South Africa this week..... yay! I miss the woman, even though she gets on my nerves sometimes, she's the only one I got!!!

Later

@@@@ no title realy!

Have ya'll ever bought someone a rather expensive gift and they somehow didn't like it, well they'll pretend that they do but in actual fact they just loath it...............

Oh, I think that is the case with BF right now.... on Saturday, me feeling all generous and shit decided to buy the man some things, he has gotten me stuff before so I thought that maybe if I also got him something he'd be happy! My dear lord, I saw this look on his face that just said "What the fcuk were you thinking woman?" and did I mention that I spent a lot of money on those gifts?

Anyways so ya, that is that..... I was upset about it but now, I am cool. We are going to a "hobbo" party at his work place on Saturday - I am however still trying to cook up an excuse to miss it and I haven't been successful yet. I see, the only way I might win is if I suddenly get my period and start crying from the hectic cramps! Yuk.....

Did I tell you guys how annoying some of work buddies are?

Oh - another funny one: Abe, the midget-looking like friend we stay with is going out with Heidi.... the same girl that BF was macking on or dating (don't know the real story there) when we met. BF didn't look very impressed with that and now I am wondering WTF?????? More like - don't make me go crazy on you now? Abe also has a new hobby = macking on every available woman at the complex we live in.

It's Phuza Thursday today - trust Gareth Cliff to promote that on 5FM!!!

Weekend -

This past weekend was just crazy.......

• Hooked up with a few friends,
• Downed beers,
• Met a crazy chick who came down with a friend to Nelspruit for her B'day,
• Made up with BF after hectic argument on Thursday,
• Spent a lot of money on something, I just don't remember what exactly,
• Attended some Miss Barberton shit thing - poorly organised, too many drunk people in one place has never been wise.
• Got a flat tyre on Kliff's car
• BF drank till he puked,
• I danced like a white chick - no offence.......
• Somehow managed to get my laundry done....
• Realised how hot BF actually is...... strange that I had never noticed that before.
• Had a serious shaggathon going on as well,
• Harold & Kumar is the isht...

Ya, now am @ work (though I wish I wasn't)...... wearing something very floral (my washing had no dried in the morning). I have no idea where to start or what I should do today.

My one friend had a baby shower over the weekend, I couldn't make it but I had a cool chat with her over the phone.....

then it hit me.... again - my gosh I am growing older, almost everybody is getting older and doing what old people do and me, I still dress up the same way as I did when I was still a student, I talk funny isht, given the chance I play with kiddies stuff, play street soccer and do all the other isht I did back in the day. My hairstyle hasn't changed either, my tongue is still pierced...

I don't know why people change so much when they get to their mid/late 20's. they dress funny too.

Ah well, as shocked as I am - still, I cannot believe I haven't change much since those days and I am planning keeping things like that for a very, very log time - or maybe until I get kids.

Wednesday.....

I totally bored the isht out of myself today..... that was not good! I have never been bored with myself coz I always think of something interesting! Who the fcuk is s'pposed to find me interesting if I, myself am not interested!!!! Seriously, I see trouble!

Am now avoiding all calls from unknown numbers as I, earlier on - cussed (in a vulgar manner) at the BF's ex.... the woman keeps sending him texts & calling him - Like.... they have nothing to talk about and definitely no going down memory lane.

This is so not like me but fcukit, she annoys me to the core.

Besides all that, all is still good @ my love land!

People are headed down to Durban for the July shindig... drive safely & have stax of fun! I personally think it is a waste of money and the fun is really enjoyed by the rich & famous, as they get vvip treatment while a normal Tom just go on ahead trying to fit in..... when they don't really care who the fcuck you are.

I on the other hand am planning on getting heavily smashed with Kwaki, BF, Kliffo'day & who ever that decides to join us!!!

Don't ya'll wish Bridget could update her blog.... I miss her!

Oh well, back to work!

Tuesday.....

This past weekend was chilled out... later on I got to doing some dancing @ News Cafe, I regretted it in the morning but it wasn't half as bad as the hang over I had - it lasted the whole day! Jugermeester or some isht like that had something there and we got heavily smashed - BF was worse (remember it only takes 3 beers to get him drunk).

Ya'll should have seen him shaking things that should never shake on a striper-pole! I danced on it too - and fell a few times but who cares....

I couldn't eat, walk or watch tv.....

I spent like half my rent money so now I am in a sorry state.... but fcukit I'll get over it soon.

This week got off on a boring start, am hoping that it ends with a blast!!!

Kwaki is in Nelspruit.... yay! Planning on a serious debauchery nine9, on Saturday that is!!!!

So about the new job thing - they still want to employ me but only from October.... am thinking long & hard if I should for them or move on!!!!

Amy winehouse is full of shit.. or crack, either way she is a disgusting piece of trash with a very nice voice!!!!! She needs Jesus, immediately!

Wednesday~

BF's parents are coming to visit next week.... for the whole fcukin week!!!


SAVE ME......

That is a desperate cry for help! Asseblief tog!

BF is so happy coz "It'll give them a chance to know you".... NOT, they are already complaining that we are sleeping in the same room! OMG when will I get a chance to smoke or drink beer.....

This is so not happening, I wish it doesn't.... ooh but BF is gon' be so disappointed, saw his face change when he told me that they (his parents) would be visiting.... I just froze and the first words out of my mount were ~ What, why, when, why oh god, I think I need to visit a friend!

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Moving on slowly......

Cats, I love cats for some reason they just interest me but because I am black I cannot have one as a pet for fear of being accused of practising witchcraft. It is so weird how black people are so supersticious.... as a teenager I wanted a monkey for a pet and my momma said NO, finish & klaar! "what do you want our neighbours to think???? I am not a witch and if we have a monkey staying with us, that is exactly what they will think"

Fcuk it man.....


SO as a results I grew up with no pets whatsoever.... there was that one dog a very long time a go but it tried biting me so it was clearly not my or our pet, a stray dog I think it was!

So BF wants a dog.... ok so I suggested that we get those miniature sausage dogs or chiwawa but no HE wants those big ass dogs..... my problem: they shit too much and I am terrified of them, they are so not cute!!!

Monday ~

Oh wow........

Happy Monday......

Enjoy the week.......

I don't know what's up but I am in a happy mood, no doubt!

Happy weekend ~

I stole this from Sweets........ Sue me, I'll hunt you down!

1. What is your first name?
… Khensani


2. What is your favorite food?
… Ocean Basket's Platter.... (hake, prawns, calamari, mussels etc)


3. What high school did you go to?
… Middleburg High then Hoerskool Bergvlam then Lowveld Christian School.... what???? I got expelled a few times.


4. What is your favorite color?
... Green, Yellow, Black - I have more than 1 fav. color!


5. Who is your celebrity crush?
… Jay Z - No, not Jacob Zuma, Josh Hartnet & Mathew (Failure to launch, yes that one)


6. What is your favorite drink?
… Water


7. What is your dream vacation?
… Anywhere I've never been to, @ someone Else's account ofcoz


8. What is your favorite dessert?
… Malva Pudding & Homemade custard


9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
… an extremely wealthy but unknown woman


10. What do you love most in life?
... Meself, duh!


11. What is one word that describes you?
… Oi


12. What is your blog name?
… Diva, there is no wow explanation to it really!


FriDay......Yay!

No plans, no,no but I am so gon' have fun.... even if it'll be just sleeping or watching movies!

Today was one of the most hectic ones at work - shooo, I didn't want to be me today!

Luckily.... I passed the test I wrote earlier on this week and I might be getting meself a new job that pays me at least 2grand more than what I am currently earning, it's not much but you'd be surprised to see how much that lil bit helps.

I would've taken any job, even if it payed me R100 more than my salary right now. The fact of the matter is that I want a new job, anywhere....as long as I don't work here anymore.

It sounds like I don't know what I wanna do with myself & career but honestly I have plans of owning something soon, still in process (don't wanna give too much details) and while I wait for that to take off, I wanna acquire as much knowledge, skills as needed from almost related fields, money and isht.

So ya....

Wish ya'll have a fab one!

Phuza Thursday ~ W-end almost here...

Oi...

I have started doing tummy crunches and all that stupid nonsense with the hopes of becoming a summer bunny, bombshell, sexy thang later on this year.... let me tell that it aint easy, in fact it is pretty fucked up coz my tummy hurts and apparently that is a sign that my muscles are working.

So BF is helping me out! It's weird but fine I guess.

And we....I have been invited to their "Hobo" party sometime soon. I know it's coz they wanna look/analyse me and shit. They (his work buddies) only see me from very far and I have heard that they think I some sort of weirdo. I'll show them who's the weird one! BF made me promise not to try and drink everyone under the table (free booze)... I said I wouldn't but how the heck will I relax if I'm sober????

NO fair.

I still think that the Nelspruit SABC only employs people who have a high alcohol tolerance..... jyslik, almost everyone I know who works there has a passion for booze, some more than me! And I thought that was highly unlikely unless I would be competing with a drinker that desperately needs to attend AA meetings.

Anyhoo.... gots to go back to pleasing the humans that pay my salary.

Ooh it's 'Phuza Thursday" today... or "Thirsty Thursday" to some (SABC employees, sshhh...)

Planting weed to save for wine....

oH wow....... it's rainy today. This weather makes me wanna sleep the whole day with breaks inbetween to go eat and then go back to the bed and do movies - romantic comedy maybe!

But


That is just me wishing.... I gotta work and money for my boss so he can buy another car this year!

Have I ever mentioned that I, just by the way... don't have one! I swear if I don't get one soon, I'll forget how to drive for real.

Anyways.... seems like no one has an overly interesting story to tell!

I have met people who are bull shit writers but really quiet people in person, I find that so strange! But then again, I guess that is the beauty of writing isht down that actually saying it like verbally...... some say it is verbal or oral vomit or some isht like that!

My BF smokes weed, and so I decided to plant him some. I mean it can't be illegal coz I won't be selling it, just growing it do that he can spent less on buying that stuff and invest in the wine collection I want so much... I can't brew my own alcohol but I can definitely plant some weed! Hope the police don't come check what I am doing there.... I have fears that my demented old tannie that leaves right next to us might rat me out. She's freaky always smiling and waving from her veranda. She's too nice in a weird kind of way, its suspicious!

Weekend - MonTuesday

Before I reach my cap and all.....

Let me post something.

Weekend - Long.... felt longer than it really was, I drank drinks with alcohol in them but did not get sloshed.... Sleepy & bored is more like it.

Tried doing the whole partying thing and that did not work out either...

So I thought to myself... hmmmm maybe I'm outgrowing this whole love today like it is your last thing and gotten used to just chilling when I have free time.

I enjoyed curling up on the couch more than the club thing.... wow!

Yesterday BF was trying to get me to go out coz he feels that "it is his fault" that people say that I am hiding myself and am "out of the scene".... which scene they are talking about, I do not know. But yeah so, yesterday I eventually went along with some friends and saw very new faces to me, some loud and pretentious, some ok and some thinking what the hell happened to er (her being me)... as ya'll might have read already I don't do fashion, I do me... so there I was chubby and all, wearing something that looks like a sarong wrapped as a top, afro out, cargo shorts and a camo bag!!!

I could just see all those weired stares and carried on talkin as usual.

Sunday: a chef friend of ours decided to make potjie kos.... yummy!

I was so full I just wanted to pass out!

I almost fell from a moving 1400 bakkie.... we were sitting at the back (you do know how small that car is right) and I was sitting on a camp master chair at the back. I was having a lekker time chatting with buddies when the driver decided to drive faster and making a turn that made the chair tilt a bit, making me almost fall out of the car.... so the same people I was chilling with had to grab me by my legs and one arm to stop me from falling!

My ass was terrified.... I have since refused to get into another Nissan 1400 bakkie.

Askies for the driver coz I told him exactly what I thought of his driving and so on.

This Tuesday feels like a bloody Monday...... I sense that I am gon have a very bad week @ work, I am writing a test today, I am broke and waiting for month end, both my bosses are moody today - oh wow is me, what am I going to do?...

Have a great one!!!