Sometimes the best thing you can do is nod and smile.... and if the matter doesn't require a smile. Shake your head and say "Eish". Now somebody some pray for women to have the ability to eat whatever we want (not measure portion sizes) and not get fat! Really - that is all we really want! That and for men to understand that keeping quiet about something doesn't really mean we don't know! Contrary to what many men believe - we actually do not want the drama, the yelling and so called nagging. We just wanna chill with our boo thangs and push in with life. Overlooking things doesn't make us stupid or naive and all those other things they choose to call us when we're not around. We like peace! Oh my frigging tits, that's the last time I try talking seriously relationships! That's the one thing that confuses me - and when I say it confuses me, it is NOT because I don't know what I want. I just don't know where to get it!

My love of music

some of my childhood friends often asked me why I'm always going on about music being life to me.... and me being me, I always get my words jumbled up and end up with answer that just goes like 'I don't know, I just love music a bit more than the average person. My days are just never fine unless I play I play certain tracks out loud and sing or dance along. One of my fondest childhood memories was when the whole Stimela band would come to my house for a chillas of sorts - drinking Ohlson"s Larger and chilling on the lawn going through what ever they had recorded that day - Nana Cayote, Ray Phiri, Malum' Jabu and the rest. I used to sit encansini on the grass and just listen to them _ this was still in the early 90's. Things were just so much simpler back then... I was a child and oblivious to to everything that was going on at that time politically. All I knew was that they were gon' get drunk and I will be picking up those huge ass R1 coins in the morning 'coz they alays fell out of their pockets when the were drinking while chilling on the grass, That all happened when I was still living eLekazi - a township in Nelspruit. I still replay images of my momma dancing. I have since seen Stimela perform live at least 22 times in my adult life and have loved each and every performance - eventhe ones without Nana Cayote. All of that just remind me of why I love doing events and live performance. It's like I was just born to do this - this whole event coordinating thing! Not a lot of people can genuinely say that the wake up to go to work and do what they love. I'm beyond blessed bitches!

Fastrack to 2013

This surely is my year! That's it. That's all I've got! With the amount of things that go through my mind and the bile that comes out of my mouth every other minute - that is really all I've got! I know we're 5 months into the year already to be saying that but fuck it - I cannot be charged for being delayed! Adios!

Life as it was!

2012 was a bad year - when the clock struck midnight into 2013 I was relieved. 1. I stayed the whole year without working. 2. Hooked up with a guy I wouldn't look twice at on a normal/sane day - that part actually threw me off the most! *note to self* Never have sex when bored! 3. Some dumb fuck bumped my car only a few months after I had taken it out of insurance (I was unemployed remember) and then the fucktard skipped town without giving even a penny to get that fixed. 4. Discovered that we have people in the family that actually use muthi to backtrack other family members' success (you have to be black or Indian to understand that) 5. I was broke 6. I almost became a mother - miscarriage at 3-months (let's just say God knows best) 7. I gained more weight 8. All I did was sleep - at least 60% of the year. 9. Discovered that some friends really don't give 2 fucks of what you are going through. 10. People forgot how to dial numbers and actually call. *shrugs* My ass is still alive though >>> and that is a good thing!