Say What!!!!

Ha, Issue #2: Kwaki murdered cupid..... All my hopes of being lucky next year are almost gone, now I'm never getting anything for Valentine's Day (not that I have in the past) but I still had hope you know!!!! Anyways... back to now

Are black men romantic in any way? or maybe I should say African men? I'm still to meet a black man that will do all of the following:

• Buy me my favourite flowers every now and then (not coz he's done something wrong but nje for the fuck of it)
• Slave over the stove, making me a nice meal (just coz he wanted to)
• Figure out what I'm thinking or want without me having to lush out at him first
• Miss watching the biggest soccer game of the year just to chill with me
• Say all the right things at a good time
• Understand that Friday night must not always be Boyz night out
• Not be shy to be honest about his thoughts, feelings and the rest
• Write me poetry once in a while
• Wash all my sneakers when they are dirty
• Clean after himself if he has messed the house
• Open the car door for me ( all the time)
• Let me know how much he loves me and how I'm so beautiful (without looking desperate and overdoing it)
• Take control when necessary but not be too bossy
• Make me laugh - everyday (don't be too corny though)
• Wow me - somehow
• Give me an orgasmic foreplay
• Kiss me sensually - perfectly
• And last for atleast 40 minutes (if you know what I mean)
• Know that sometimes its just all about me,me, me
• It doesn't hurt to be generous sometimes (ka-ching $$$), just coz you can
• Lastly be innovative(in bed), sweet, caring and loving & I don't mean be obsessed over me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is whats more or less at the top of my list...... If you are capable of doing the above, PLEASE CALL ME - 084 959 2258!!! I'm not too desperate though but ya hollar at da Diva!!!

Hmmm!!! Women always complain about their men being boring and unromantic, which makes me wonder....... what are they offering to please the men??? Maybe black people in general are just not romantic!!! Even the stats show........ The show "All you need is love" didn't do wonders for our people, it was just UUURRRRGGGG!!!!!!! If you know what I mean. Don't be shy, I'm waiting for that call.

Don't forget to enter Kwaki's Competition - Win A Mazda....

F**cked up day!

I'm officially having the most fucked up day to date!!!! I woke up with one mother of a headache, went to the government complex and was made to empty the boot of the car I was driving, one lift was not working so I had to walk three floors up and down, never mind that its freakin hot in Nelspruit. Then as I was going back to the office this one dude driving a golf 5 by the robots, thinking he's all that decided to wink at me, I just looked at him like what the fuck, haaa and then he just screams out that he wants to marry me!!!! Can you imagine, in public!!!! oh well I get to the office and figure that I forgot to take my change from this other lady that works at the Total garage kiosk ( I bought a coke for R 50) as I sat down to answer the phone, my favourite skirt that costed me a nice amount (I still haven't settled the account) decided to get tangled up and got stuck to the chair some how so when I stood up to fecth my glasses from the table by the door........ it tore!!!!! I want to cry about it but I can't coz I have a client waiting for a quotation sitting in front of me, and I've just realised that I made a mistake on it!! Shit!!!!


In about 20minutes I have to go pick up the lil' sister from school, I have to go fix my phone and go to the bank, oh and not forgetting how I've registered for a new course (part time) that I have to attend later on today and to top it all off I'm still not done with the shit I have to do in the office!!!!

HELP ME!!!!!!

I am....

In a previous post I mentioned something about the I am... poems being overdone , well I have one as well but I'm not sure if it's anything close to being a real poem, all I know is that I just write sometimes what I write about doesn't make much sense to me either but here goes nothing:

I'm the voice...
The voice that will speak for those who can't - the deaf, mute & of a foreign langauge
I'm the voice that draws the attention of those who think highly of themselves & have no time to listen to the people who are worthy of their listening abilities!

I'm a writer...
A writer that will make the rest of the world learn of what I have put down on paper
Coming about it verbally is very hard for our people at times
I will write for the disabled and illiterate
I offer my abilities to put pen onto paper to those who can't do it themselves!

I'm the sun...
The same sun that brightens up the days of those who who see them as to be dull, cloudy and stormy
I'll be the sun after a rainy night, I'll rise and shine so that people smile
I'll make their day pleasant so they feel there's something to look forward to the following day!

I'm the water...
The water that cleanses people's souls, the same water that God's people are baptised in to wash away their sins
The water that moistens our land to keep everything alive, the water that reflects purity and cleaness.

If one had to put me on stage, I'd be a storyteller, the open book that people can learn from, I'd wish for the magic to heal every broken heart. Let me be the star that will light the way to a more fulfilling life, make people understand that one simple smile can make up for the stream of tears that have fallen, that the power of forgiveness heals all hidden wounds.


Oh well, I tried..... I guess some of us are just good at writing bullsh*t better than other things.

How I've searched for traces of your face at every possible space
The love I felt then is still strong now
Time has past, some memories will always last
What is love lost, when I still keep you in my thoughts

What I feel for you comes from deep within
Pictures of you and I constantly flash in my mind
Emotions that I tried to hide stay visible in my eyes
Things that bring joy to ones life come with pain aswell

Taking myself back to the times when we were together
Spending time with you seemed to be one of my life's pleasures
I swore to have never felt love like that when you held me close
Loving you was like a dream, one that I wouldn't forget

You were a simple person person,
A person that shared with me the beauty of life
With flaws or not, the feeling of being loved & being in love
Always remains ever so precious and priceless

All that I could ever need then, I found in you
Life's lessons I've learned with you
Simple pleasures of love, youi've given me
My gratitude I express to you for bringing out the best of me.

Now that was 3 years ago, how that came about, I don't know even worse I don't remember loving a person that much in life at that time.

I think I would write a meaningful love piece only if I were head over heels in love with some one, which I'm not yet, so ya look out for one some time soon (I hope).

Had an interestingly dull but nice weekend but I think Friday was cool even though I don't quite remember most of it - thanks to a green bottle but atleast I came back home early ( everyone was still awake) around 11pm.

4 da love of men!

It surely must be difficult to be a man at times! To think that on the surface, you look all tough and invincible, shame!!!
This weekend, I got to thinking after looking at the people that around me and the people that I already know and a few thinks came to me.....

• A man's relationship with the woman he loves most can actually be determined by what he puts out during sex.... If you're whack - your ass is kicked to the curb and if you're good you'll get to keep her by your side a bit longer, just as long as you keep up the good work (giving her multiple orgasms at least 4 times a week).

• Men are sometimes expected to make miracles every time the girlfriend needs something, i.e: You have to stop watching the Kaiser Chiefs v/s Pirates game and your friends so and take your girlfriend to the salon to do her hair, that you have to pay for and when she comes out of the salon looking like a peacock, you are forced to smile and comment when she asks you "Baby, do you love my new hairstyle?", F*ck, you just paid R200 for something that will scare you every time you see its shadow at night.

• Then you get a please call me from this chick you've been trying to get for the past 5 months, you call her and she gives you the " Hi, I just wanted to hear your voice, where are you and what are you doing tonight?", so you drive for about 30km to go see her ( in your mind you've already pictured that you'll take her out and spend time with her) eish and when you get there she's with her 3 Friends that annoy you to hell and back and they all want to tag along to wherever you are taking her or else she can't go with you alone. So you finally agree for them to come with (and at that moment, all your boys are busy having fun without you) as you drive pass one of the friends gives your potential girlfriend a sign that they want you to buy them Smirnoff Storms (mind you these chicks drink like fish), so you take out R100 and get them what they want hoping that it will get them to shut the f*ck up. when you get to town the one sitting behind you asks that you change you Skwatta Kamp cd and put Dj Fresh 'coz they don't understand hip-hop, they just want to dance. When you get to town, the one sitting in the middle quietly hints that she is a hungry and wants Nando's, again you take out R100 to buy a full chicken,chips and rolls... they start eating in your clean car and hold your seats and windows with their greasy hands, finally you decide to take them to your friends birthday party, when they get there they start causing trouble with the other girls they found at the party ne after your friend tells them to fuck off coz they slapped his girlfriend you take them back to your place, while the friends are flipping through the channels of you DSTV you ask the potential girlfriend to come chill with you in the other room.... now after all the shit you had to put up with just for the to give you the answer you have been waiting for, for so long, she tells you the following: "Haai, you know I've just broken up with my boyfriend of 3 years and I'm just hurt and confused, especially since I found out yesterday that he also slept with my 4 cousins so nje I don't think I'm ready for another boyfriend but we can still be friends. You - try to console her buy giving her a hug saying that it's ok, you'll give her all the time she needs to heal and as you try to sneak a kiss in there, she tells that she's on her periods (now you know 4sho that you aint getting any)... 4 days later one of your friend tells you they saw the same chick again at the club and fucked that same night, Aag shame all that trauma for nothing, don't you just hate the b*tch?

• Then some men are expected to never be broke, just because you drive the new Audi A4, live in Hill Side Manor and work at the MP government complex, women will think you are Tito Mboweni - not taking to mind that you have to pay R 4 500 for the car, R 5 000, for the flat, R 1000 for a bachelors grocery, R 2000 to stock up the fridge with booze every weekend, R 3000 for you family in the rural area, shoooo so many expenses and then your girlfriend still expects you to pay for her R 300 manicure, R 200 pedicure, R 300 weave, R 1 500 truworths account, R 800 petrol for a month and still take her out every second day coz she's lazy to cook.

• And finally, most women simply think that men don't know what love is and that they don't feel any emotions - that not on right? I think out there, some men actually do hurt as much as women do when they are dumped or have been cheated on or what ever the case may be but bottom line is they are human as well and they do cry (sometimes, even though some may hide it), so ladies.... give your men a break at least once and be nice to them, pamper them, show them love and make them feel special, that way they can't really complain when you blow they're monthly salary in one week.

Could've been love!

Found myself listening to ama-slow jam while trying to figure out what I was feeling @ that time...
I took a look in the mirror and saw what hadn't been there for a long time, my eyes had lit up. I skipped to the next track... and was like shit, Eryka Badu doing my favourite song " I'm in love with you", it seemed to be the perfect description of how my heart was feeling.

It was after a very long day, closing my eyes and letting my body and mind rest was the only good thing I could do for myself.

As I started drifting to la-la land I stopped halfway there and reminded myself to dream about him, it was what he had asked me to do when he turned to walk away. He had occupied my mind more often than not in that one day, even with his cheesy pick up lines.... still I was impressed by him.

I had only met his 5 hour earlier that day, already I was seeing myself sharing life with him for years to come. In my dream I had images of him in different scenarios - he was perfect in every sense. I had convinced myself a long time ago that I'm one who believed not in love at first sight, he made me smile, I liked him.

Unsure if I should, I waited in vain for his call - he said he would! Days later, word around campus was he had finally met the woman he'd love with all of him. She was all he spoke about to his friends and that woman was me.

A letter he wrote said he had found his happiness but he couldn't give her the love she needed and that he couldn't live life as he would like to so he cut himself just to see his blood gush out of his body, stopping his heart from beating. He said that his blood was keeping him away from his happiness.

He never gave himself a chance and I, I, I........How would life be with him? I loved him and he died before I could let him know and the last I could say to him as we viewed the lifeless body was it could've been..... R.I.P

Mzansi's Artists!

Poetry - beautiful, inspiring and touching!!!

In the last 5 years we've seen much needed change in the poetry and hip-hop scene right here e-Mzansi and really some have done quite well and some, eish...

But here's what I trying to say, and this has been a topic eshisayo between Splacka, Blaque, AfroSLiQ Diva and Kwaki:
In the past many poets did the whole "I am African", "I am woman", "Jozi streets by night", "Poverty", "The Apartheid...." and nje I could go on and on but for how long must certain poets be on that tip? Aren't there other things people can write about? Unless they are planning on keeping it to themselves, I'm cool with it but if they wanna share it with people who are willing to listen to you than they must try other topics.

And then there is hip-hop and the battle yakhona with the underground catz "beefing" with mainstream catz....

Q. How long are they going to be underground if they want to do it professionally and want to be heard, not only by the underground movement but by the masses as well? I mean underground - you can't even make enough to buy a skateboard! (Not a fact, just my thoughts)

And what is it with the attitude from underground hip-hop artists?

"All women are b*tches", "mainstream hip-hop artists are sell-outs and can't freestyle" - I swear the most that I've met are like that, almost like they are living in another planet nje.... all I'm saying is: they can record as many albums as they want and be in the "studio" 24/7/36 x 4 all they want but the music industry is like a game of chess so shem bom'rapper abahle, just deal with it if you want to ever get any airplay. Not forgetting how difficult it is sometimes to understand some of their lyrics 'coz of all the metaphors and shit, I know ya'll are all for being "deep" mara haai - sometimes it sounds like a bunch of words collected from the incyclopedia version dictionary and some of us are so slow that we have to listen to the same track 8 times before we actually get what ya'll are sayin.

A lot of us if not all of us can speak the queen's language but damn ya'll are just on some other level - 4sho!

Ya'll are talented 4sho but don't hide it from the world, ne!!! and haai kabi ne, but some of ya'll need to shower more often - I got mad love for hip-hop artists but I'm just sayin'.

Truth is African poets and musicians a damn talented, yet some of that talent is not being recognised and natured the way it deserves to be and many a times we're made to believe that the only people that have talent are the ones we see on TV and personally I beg to differ.

And finally I agree with KasieKulture - just because some scwelebritiz like poetry, that doesn't make them poets and in fact, some are just far from it. I'm still to hear an all round celebrity do an original piece but 'til then I don't really believe anything I hear from South African Scwelebz!!!

What If #1

I watched this other fucked up movie the other night and I got to thinking....

What if all that we have learnt, believed and think we know is just part of a project that some sick person somewhere out there has created and controlled for a very long time..... Angazi.. but what if someday one very smart person discovers the whole plot and exposes the mad scientist and we all are set free to go live in the real world (don't know which one but hey, this is a what if?).

This is what you get from watching sci-fi movies, ne!

But what if the right that the think we know is actually the wrong or that the smartest people on earth are actually the dumbest or that black is not really black or maybe that the Zimbabwean President is actually an angel..... I mean there are a lot of what ifs but what if I'm right???? HHe, HHe, HHe?

Oh and remember in the early 90's, movies back then used to show how the year 2009 would be like - with flying cars and human beings living in the same household as aliens ( the real ones, not the so-called foreigners), ooh, ooh and the laser shooting guns and the see through everything, I'm telling you - I might just be on to something!!!

The funny thing is that we are on 2007 already and I still haven't seen a flying car except for the planes at the airport.

Anyways... watch "The Island" and maybe you'll understand what I'm going on about.

Da Diva sends hugs to all the bloggers out there.

Music Videos (Part 1) - Only in the America!!!

I was watching MTV last night and I realised something........ In some American music videos - picture Jagged Edge, 112, R.Kelly, Ginuwine etc, you will notice that the stars in the videos (male, of course) are wearing big ass fur/ mink coats or jackets, hoodies with beanies and scarfs and they are very warm yet the video chick are... wait for it.... not, instead they are wearing bikini tops and mini skirts or very skimpy rags that they would like to call clothes!!!!

Now does that mean that the video chicks are so brave that they can stand the cold weather that the men there cannot? Honestly, how does it work? or is it a different temperature for the guys compared to the chicks? The funny shit about that is that the video chicks look shiny and greased up while the guys are a bit pale or is that the whole make-up plot for the video?

I'm not really sure what goes on around the set of a music video, but I think that sometimes these stylists are just thinking about their own mosquitos when deciding on the wardrobe for the video shoot, the video looks nice in the end for sure but I just can't help wondering why the men are feeling cold and the chicks feeling hot and sweating in the same music video.

If there is some one who can explain it to me in a way that I would actually understand..... PLEASE, Hollar @ Da Diva.

Shitty Days like Today!

Well I'm kinda in a funked up mood!

If you have read my Valentine's what? post, you'd figure what I talking about!!!
Yesterday the lil' brother needed a suit for a Pre-Valentines Day something that was happening at school, pity he had to wear what he already had 'coz no-one at home was prepared to run around the whole of Nelspruit just for a suit - askies bro, I tried! then today the lil' sister was dressed up in pink and white - and that is just for during the day, there's still a Valentine's day social later on tonight that she has to dress up for.

The valentine's day spirit is just every where, even Katle who is 5 years old had to dress up for the day and he is in pre-school and obviously the parents have to give kids a bit of money to buy the roses, cards and all the shit that comes with this day..... I'm telling you this has become a serious money-making scheme 4sho!

Back to the reason why I'm not really all cheerful today.... I didn't really expect anyone to be nice enough to buy me a rose or at least one of those champion sweets today but I was a bit disappointed when the morning went past without a single person saying Happy Valentine's day so in a funny way it made it clear to me that I'm officially never ever going to celebrate Valentine's day but instead I'm planning to form an ANTI-Valentine's day group, so who's joining me?????

Anywho..... I'm outtie!

Women, again!

I've been thinking.... and ya'll love it when I start thinking right?!? Heeeeeee

I was talking to an estranged friend of mine about my love life and she commented on how I'm so picky when it comes to the men I date and as was still explaining to her why I don't shag & date just any dick that comes my way I called her a slut, oops...... so pissed off at me she demanded to know why I called her the S word, I took a good 30 seconds to come up with some of the many reasons why I did and this is how I put it down to her:

1. She always tells me that I have no direction and I will never find love because I always focus on all the wrongs rather than the good parts of a man - I think the only reason why I do that if I feel that a man is not doing it for me - then he aint, point blank!

2. She tells every body who cares to listen that she doesn't sleep around and only shags her man, then it came to me.... how many boyfriends has she had in her short life? I clearly remember 13 but those are only the ones that i got to meet. now think of all the ones she never wanted to introduce to us, anyways so basically she has fucked 13 guys I know of and she still has the nerve to act holy holy... I say fuck that shit!!!! She knows she's a sl*t!

I can go on and on but truth is all women have done some dodgy shit @least twice in their lives (unless they are nuns), some - like me, try to be open and honest about it and some always try to look all innocent - now those are the worst kind! And as Kwaki said in one of his posts.... he and maybe most men would rather have a woman confess to being a nympho than to claim that they've only fucked one man their whole lives!!!!

So my dear friend, should you decide to read my blog at any time.......... YOU ARE A SL*T just as much as you'd like to think I"m a B*tch!!!!! HA, HA, HA, HA and F.Y.I da Diva doesn't settle for less than what she thinks is the best so joke's on you coz I'm loving they way I can pick and choose who ever I wanna shag!!!!

Oh and in case you are thinkin DAMN this chick is a sex freak.... don't waste your brain cells, I haven't been laid in a long time and I think its true when "THEY" say - those who talk about it the most, do it the least!!!!

AfroSLiQ DIVA says..... MMcwaaah!

The party!

So my brother and I eventually had our birthday party on Saturday... It was meant to be a small thing with about 20 guests but you know how it is, some just came in their numbers but it was cool though. Had lotsa fun I must say, though I'm still waiting for my gifts from certain people as promised.

It's funny how when you see all these people having fun and you don't think that when they go home after breaking bottles, pissing in your beautiful lawn and pool then finally throwing cigarette butts everywhere.... you are the one left to do all the cleaning up. That's what I have been doing for the past 3 days and it aint so nice but I take a few seconds and think of how much I enjoyed Saturday and nje just tell myself to f*ck it and carry on picking up all the beer bottle caps.

Thanx to all who represented, especially Kwaki, Steavy & Flex for being DJ's for the night.

Happy B'day 2 Da Diva!

Today being the 9th and all, is the DIVA'z birthday and I know that to some birthdays are not important but to me I patiently wait 365 days for mine to again. If I had a wedding annivesary to celebrate, maybe I wouldn't take my birthday so seriously but hay as long as the Diva is still a Ms. AfrosliQ then ya'll are just going to smile 'coz I'm happy!!!

I'm hoping for a half day at work, then I gotta spoil myself to something new, indulge on soomething sweet, hook up with my peoplez and get merry ( if ya'll know what I mean), then tomorrow I'm gonna have a small party 4 me and my brother, oh ya we share a birthday but we're not twins..... he's 6 years younger...

Ah, well enough about me and my happiness!!!!

And oh! Da Diva is sexy 23 today!!!

Mmmmccwaaah!!!

Love....

Why is it so damn difficult to tell a person that you are really into that you love them... I mean it's a simple I love you!

It's easy to tell a friend, your brother/sister/ parent or some other person you are just using to get laid... the words come out so easily with them but not to the person you are really attracted to - physically, emotionally and in every other way possible!

You'll talk to this person for hours on end on the phone and just as you are about to hang up, you stutter some thing that almost sounds like "I love you" and when asked to repeat what you had just say you give them the "No, it's nothing. I was just saying bye, talk to you later." line!

The killer of that is when you are just a "friend" to the person you are in love with and while you are taking your own time trying to figure out the most simpliest way to say I love you, they are slowly falling in love with some one else and sadly that some one is just not you but you can't really do anything about it because you are not sure how they will take it. They keeping telling you of how much they like the other person, confiding in you with details that you wish were your own.

Don't get me wrong here, it's not that they don't love you, its just that you have been playing the friendship card for so long that they just decided to stop seeing you as a potential lover... but at the same time if you had to take that leap and come clean with your actual feelings towards this person, they'll probably slap you for taking such a long time to upfront with them.

Tip:
Men, just know that as soon as you present yourself as the reliable friend, that is what you are going to be in the eyes of your female friends. If you know that you actually want to be more than the friend she confides in, let her know first before she gets too used to hugging you rather than shagging you. It won't ruin the friendship but perhaps become a good relationship, you'll never know unless you take the plunge.

Practise saying it now: I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, get it......

Such a shame coz I'm in the same predicament!!!!!!!!!!

Must do's

"They" say an average person is:

• Born
• Goes to school
• After high school, got to tertiary to obtain either a degree, masters, diploma etc
• Gets a minimum wage paying 8 to 4 office job for about a year
• Gets a promotion after a while or gets a better paying job
• Gets married to their highschool/ varsity sweetheart
• Have about 3 kids
• Live a happy married life
• Contracts a chronic disease like cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure or something
• Gets into a car crash or is attacked by armed robbers
• Then die

I say:

• If female, try a hot sex session with another woman ( You'll love it)
• Get motherly sloshed atleast once a year
• Dare yourself to do something you'd never do on a normal day
• Travel to a foreign country where no one will understand you, even if you speak english
• Buy a Quad bike/ motor bike/ a very fast sports car or atleast a skate board
• Spend your monthly salary in one day and see how you'll survive the rest of the month
• Get a writen warning for public indecency
• Go for an audition of some sort (pop idols)
• Keep driving until you run out of petrol and get stranded with a bunch of close friends
• Get your heart broken atleast once in your life
• Hug or kiss someone you just met 2 minutes ago
• Stalk your favourite celebrity
• Write a novel, love letter or a poem
• Dye your pubic hair green
• Finally tell a stranger you are madly in love with them, you don't have to really mean it.

Old skool v/s New school loving!

Ok so it's like this... I'm a kasie girl more than anything else and back then elok'shini if a guy really wanted to be with you, you would see by the effort he puts into seeing and persuing you. The poor guy would stand by the bus stop, waiting for your ass to come back from school, walk you home and you'll both stand at some corner. He = repeating the same shit he's been telling for the past 6 months and you play hard to get when you know that you are totally digging this guy - Eish maar women and their tactics...

You keep telling everyone else that he's not your boyfriend but you meet him at the corner at 6 everyday and talk for an hour or so. After a year of begging and pleasing you finally decide that you want him as your boyfriend and say yes.... then what you have spoken about every topic one can think of already and you simply have nothing to say to each other..... silly ne, but it's what I call kasie love! And back then the guys used to go that extra mile to make you feel like a princess and to show that they were feeling you that much.... even if he was broke more often than not, when he has some you would be the first person he thinks of getting something for - that had so much sentimental value!

Now with the new school, you just have to go with the flow....

"Hi my name is Sean... nice ass ,so wanna go to my place?"

Next morning.........................................

"Yo girl, wake up! By the way what did you say your name was? Can I take you back home now, you can give me your number if you want to, I might just call you later and oh last night was great!!!!!"

Like what the fuck?

I don't care what anybody says, I still want to be macked on... or at least say something sweet to me man or take me out a few times.... I need some motivation!!!

Back in the day some would only shagged after atleast 8 months of being a couple but these days all it takes is a 2 days and even that is too long, with a few smooth words, a nice car and cash to flaunt you can get laid in 1 hour.

I think I need a debate session for this topic.....

It's becoming much of a heated arguement on my side, how are some of us supposed to get married if we have to go with the flow all the time, coz really how many guys does one person have to go with the flow with in one life time????? Haai

Kwaki, K'Oday........... get a case of amstel and two bottles of wine!!!!

It's on!!!!

Diva

Issue #1

I've been staring at this screen for about an hour now, I had an interesting topic to write about and I just realised that a lot of people that are close to me may take offence to what I was going to write about so I guess I'll just have to go outside maybe take a walk to the shop so I can find something to write about!!!

Stop wondering and just LIVE!

Some people always wonder if they are fashionable enough to fit in with the elite society, if they are worthy enough to be considered as social butterflies.....

I say: Self worth can never be determined by the next person 'coz you are your own person, you can't always fit in.... you gotta be an outcast at some point in your life and if you are hoping to scoop the "socialite of the year award" don't bet on it!

Others may wonder where their next income will come from.... if it ever will? If there's food to eat before going to bed, even better... how are they going to come out of a seemingly difficult situation and make their next million?
Other people may wonder how the many social ills came about? Will they make it through the night? Will they live long enough to see their grandchildren's success? If some things are as genuine as they are made to look?

Then there are people who are just wondering who their next victims will be? What is their next mission... will it be rape, robbery, fraud or murder?

What I'm sayin is: The mind is a very powerful thing... cliche, I know but it's constantly functioning, if only people could put in to good use... oh how a wonderful world it would be and sometimes people should just quit thinking about all the wrongs in their lives and be more happy....... less suicide, don't you think.

LIVE LIFE....

You will spend 99% of you life eating healthy, avoiding alcohol and smoking, have all forms of security around your property and going to the gym everyday all to live a long healthy life. You are so safe about everything that you are constantly panicking every time you notice something unusual, so much so that you feel as if you are losing you sanity and all you neighbours probably think you are a weird freak... but are you aware that maybe just one day you will decide to go for a walk to wherever and on your way there you might just get hit by a bus and die???!!!

Stop stressing about a lot of things and just live!!!!

After all what would life be without all the issues, fast food, beer, thieves and all the things that "THEY" say it's bad for your health and what do "THEY" know anyways!!

Oh, that thing called love!

So you are in love with this one person right and you suddenly find yourself in one of these
f*?@cked situations:

1) You hear that he/she was seen together with another person at some party that you happened to miss while on the other hand they also hear that you were seen doing the same shit with someone else, now both of you feel hurt and neither of you want to be the first to pick the phone and call each other.
Eventually a few months go by and you still haven't spoken to each other, then you bump into each other at a mutual friend's house warming party.

Q. What do you say or do to each other?

2) The hot chick/guy that lives down the road from you and had a major crush on for years finally decides to be nice to you and asks you out to watch a movie or go out for drinks and you obviously say yes and on that day you find out that you actually just find that spark between you two and decide to see each other again on a more romantic note this time, things are just the way you've dreamt they would be but the the next day he/she tells you that he/she's going overseas for five years and promises to keep in touch every now and then, telling you of their undying love for you.

Q. Do you really wait for them and when they do come back is the love still as strong, even better (they have gained a few kilos and not as attractive as they used to be back then), would you still want to picks up from where you left them@?

3) For what ever reason that you decide to end things with your partner, after a while of missing them and not finding the perfect replacement for them, you start to really think about how you can patch things up with them. You get back together again things are great for a short while after that you start getting this nagging feeling that they will hurt you again, you become suspicious every time their phone rings or when they are are an hour late for your date etc...

Q. Is going back to a person you once loved before really worth it if you constantly wonder if are being faithful to you or not and you keep bringing up the past every time you disagree on something?

My thoughts on it: Every person decides what they want to do with their love lives right, what ever that makes them happy and helps them sleep better at night. Truth is you can find hundreds of reasons why you wouldn't want to go back to your ex but you can find find twice as much reasons why you would. The worst thing that could happen is that once they do something that hurts you the second time around, it will totally kill the last bit of love that you ever felt for that person..... My theory may not be totally true but I believe that if it's not worth the second try, don't do it rather keep that bit of love and respect that you still have for them to yourself and just be nice to them, who knows they can turn out to be a better friend than lover!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everybody needs one.

So you have finally found the one you want to share the rest of your life with but you keep trying really hard to find something interesting to talk about or do when you are together.

As hard as this is for some people to admit, after a while of being together all day every day - it does get a bit boring and you end up feeling as if that "spark" is just not there, you start wondering if it's romantic or brotherly/sisterly love you feel for your partner or kanjani! You get too used to having them around that when you look at them, you just don't feel the way you used to when you first met.... It's no lie, it happens to be best of couples out there - for real!

This is my point:

You'll know somewhere deep in your heart that you love this person and they love you back but at the same time you just have this urge to go out and find yourself a .... wait for it.... SPLACKAVELLI a.k.a JZ a.k.a THe OTHER ONE!!! You know that other person that will keep you excitited, enjoying the thrill of being naughty behind your girl/boyfriend's back and knowing that you might be caught and at the same time trying hard not to let it show that you have been doing some late night creeping while you partner is at home thinking that you are visiting your elderly grandmother in the Bundus where there is poor network!!!!

You are not entirely to blame, shit happens you know and relationships in general can be hard to mantain and sometimes you just need to get away from all that and get down & dirty (in a harmless manner though). Do what ever that feels right to you and know that when you do eventually get caught with your pants down - you are able to explain your way out of it and remember EN JOY the thrill while it lasts, it doesn't hurt to be naughty and carefree every now and then, just don't break a lot hearts whilst you still at it!!!

Yours in words....

AfroSLiQ Diva!!!

Questions????

You tell a person that you miss them right, then they ask you why or rather what do you miss about them..... How the fruity do you answer that especially when you know that there is no specific reason behind you missing them, you just do!!!!

Its like when you tell a person you love them then you just have to ask you why.... I bet if you had to tell them they are ugly they won't ask you why.

My view, when someone says they miss me, I ask no questions and just feel flattered that at what ever time they thought about me rather than somebody else and really some people must just avoid asking 22 questions that way they'll avoid getting the answers that they don't really want to hear, I think questions should be asked when one is really clueless of what's happening around them but if you know what's what.... just chill.

Those are just my thoughts..... they only have to make sense to me, right!!!

And yes, this is about you XCT!!!

Valentine's what?

So it's that time of the year where people celebrate their love for each other..... right but not all of us hey.

I woke up today and was attacked by Valentine's day adverts, they are everywhere t.v, radio and newspapers. That however made me rrealise that I have never had anything nice happen to me on this day, I've always been alone I mean the most thatI have done is be forced to wear the red and white clothes while I was still in school after that I just chill with my friends... I swear I've never even received a valentine's day card... even from a stalker!!!!!

But is it really that important to go all out and spend a lot of $$ just on this one day, I think there are a lot of ways and days that a person can show their deepest love for their partners.

I'm not an expert when it comes to the love issue, judging by the way I always manage to find myself single now and then, there must be something that I must be misunderstanding in this whole love concept.

Don't get me wrong now, I haven't lost all hope of being in love and living happily ever after all I need to find that good bachelor somewhere out there, in the mean time....... somebody, out there - be nice to me and send me a cute valentine's day msg, just to make my day.... on VALENTINE'S DAY that is.

How did valentine's day come about anyways? I know some people are cashing in on the whole concept but really is there a rule somewhere that we MUST celebrate this day.

For all of you that actually wait the whole year just for Valentine's day to come again, Enj.... Enjoy it in every way possible and if you are a virgin, try losing on this day.... who knows it might just turn out to be a beautiful and very memorable day for you....... I think not but hey who am I to say that, right!