Darn it... I can't help wanting to talk about me and the somewhat crazy isht that happens in this my life!

I really don't know what is worse.....

Me being told that I am apparently in a porno-video made by some strange dudes in Nelspruit. At first I thought bullshit coz I know for a fact that it doesn't exist. I have never been in any room besides News Cafe with them.

Now this is the shit that people go around telling to other people, some who may just be potential lovers/baby-daddy/hubby - who knows, but I must say that it is disturbing to hear such - especially when you are trying to enjoy a Sunday evening.

I am a sex starved female and there are such rumours are spreading like swine-flu! At a point I thought "oh, W.T.F I might as well be actually doing what they say I am doing" but fortunately my senses came back before I could dial up this hot, yummy gentleman that I have had very unholy thoughts of.

I am not that type of person, but being as misunderstood as I am..... who'll care to listen. I will chill with the hope that the truth will come out - somehow! Playing defensive all the time kinda looks foolish!

Then.......... there is a dude at work bugging me like crazy, the last thing I could evr do is shag a person I have to work with, awkwardness aint my thing!!!! Besides I'd have to think happy thought about another man to get me going!!!!

I am moving out of my 1 bed-flat, bye-bye freedom and roaming around in the nude!!!!

An ex of mine...... (check 2007 posts) recently contacted me after 2 years of silence and he wants to meet. Normally I would tell him to fuck-off but I chose to be nice this time. I feel sorry for the guy.... cosidering the way I ended it with him, shame.... the least he deserves is an answer! So I am taking him out for supper. Do ya'll think that is too much from my side?


I ask this coz I have noticed that when ex's sense that you might be having a problem, they'll "pity" you and you'll end up making out and that will lead him to this he was the best this to ever happen in your life,that you can't be without him...... you know such idiotic thoughts nje!!!!!

Hollar!